~ September ~

• Erica smiled at me, I had been convinced till this point that she was repulsed by my presence.
• I felt cold of the first time in a while, I love fall.
• Nobody insulted me on how I looked, I liked my messy hair today.
• its weird when two people stare at each other, its like a shared sense of curiosity. Metro
• People are interested in me at school.
• Fleet Foxes reminded me that I love live music. I'm exited for Street Festival.
• Saw a little boy playing in a puddle. I felt like him during Powder Puff. I love rain sometimes.
• My body is ok. I don't have a six pack, but I'm tall, I'm not fat. I'm strong.
• I feel like kids at school finally care about me. I talked at Monday Meeting & in Seminar and I think people understand me now.
• I'm exited to start taking guitar lessons with Rob.
• It feels like the GDS community is already making me a better person, I think ill have good manners and a strong wit by the end of these 4 years.
• Had a nice day with Ashe and Brendan, dinner with Brendan was good, I hope he comes to GDS.

~ October ~

• Pizza and Ice Cream and Movie with Morgan. Bought new clothes, sweaters. fuck yeah. I'm happy.
• Actually saw Jeneva today. Thats right, like in real life. boom. and she was quite nice, never got to hang though.
• Fall and sweaters are making everyone snuggly. Diner with mom and T tonight at MI RANCHHOOOOOOO
• First guitar lesson was cool. Calmed me down.
• No homework today, very stress free.
• Mom making cookies. I FUKIN LOVE COOKIES
• Cried 3 times today, it felt really good. I needed a good cry. First party in a while that I've stayed happy throughout
• India.Arie reminds me of my childhood, and everything else happy. She takes me out of whatever shit im standing in.
• Sleeping on the floor tonight, forgot how nice it was to switch up beds.
• Pizza is really good. I need to make more of my own.
• took my Flu and HPV shots like a man. 2 more to go...WHATEVS
• Calleva was pretty good accept for the rain, truthfully I think i kind of liked the rain
• No homework, cleaned room, tea
• Chilling with leila, not bad night.
• Arctic Fucking Monkeys.
• forgot to enter (16th-18th)
• Soccer game was cool, I liked the rain today
• I really enjoy pizza with a few kids, ive been eating less at home, think its helping me slim down
• people dancing with fire at night
• Dinner with the SS guys, then slept at Brendan's, I like nesty sleepovers
• I Love You, nice words to hear, very nice to hear.
• I like when days go better than you expected
• This is the first time I have broken my own rules and written something that is not happy. I am having a very hard time not telling Jeneva how I really feel about her. It's so obvious, I assume she has figured it out. She has a boyfriend, I'm being stupid. But even with every personal thing I tell her, I can't say how much I truly like her. God Fucking Damn It. I'm sorry list, I've failed you.
• everything is resolved, CONTINUE!
• Going to start dating these:

Oct 27, I like the library, nice and quiet

• Oct 28, Car trips are nice over all, talking to Jeneva a lot
• October 29, never experienced so much love in one space, I like the Askew family.
• October 30, I want to be a musician.
• October 31, first nice halloween in 3 years. Thank you Jeneva.

~November~

• November 1, Fuck dreads, I have plenty more years to do crazy shit
• November 2, Last day of the school week on a wednesday? I think so, I needed a break.
• November 3, Walking around for hours with Jeneva. I have not felt so wonderful in a while.
• November 4, I felt snug today
• November 5, Spent a true full day with Jeneva, I felt very SACish, it was nice. Chalk, showing me her memories and neighborhood. Actually talked to Stella. Nice being with Dana for a while. Reading with Jeneva in Dana's bed. Movies. Cookies. My favorite of the day: "I like this", "I like you"
• November 6, I like when days are better than you expect them to be, not. too. shabby.
• November 7, "Why are you leaving school right away" "My friend had a bad day... she needs a hug." I saw her house, kissed her forehead, I think I finally know her.
• November 8, Sometimes I dread them, but guitar lessons cheer me up. Dad taught me how to make an amazing cup of hot chocolate.
• November 9, I feel good about giving my shirt to Miles.
• November 10, I like staying at school late, people are nice.
• November 11, Sushi sushi sushiiii, my parents are nice people.
• November 12, Jeneva. Incredibles. Mark's. Friends. Laughter. Touching.
• November 13, Ladle Fight actually writes good music now! wooohoooooo!
• November 14, Long talk with Tabitha, very honest, I get her now.
• November 15, I like that I can hold conversation with adults.
• November 16, Longest hug I have ever had. It was very very nice.
• November 17, nice long talk with my grandparents, I feel smart.
• November 18, afternoon with Jeneva again, yayayayayayyyy! Dinner with the fam!
• November 19, fun sleep over, chat roulette, lol.
• November 20, saw Jeneva with the fam at Mark's! Chillin
• November 21, the school day went by really quick. Hung out with Jeneva and her mom. Buttons! La Madre approves.
• November 22, no homework until the 27, oh my yes.
• November 23, new pants/socks, wonderful dinner with the family. Smash Bros with the cousin while dad cooks for tomorrow.
• November 24, full plate at thanksgiving.
• November 25, Apples to apples with guests, I quite enjoy uncontrollable laughter.
• November 26, Cookie battle and smash. Cousin.
• November 27, MLK memorial reminds me that I want a camcorder. My grandparents are cute.
• November 28, Saw Jeneva after being apart for way too long. Wonderful embrace. Snuggling in her house "watching" TV.
• November 29, random texts from Jeneva make my days.
• November 30, I'm excited to get back to concerts.

~December~

• December 1, heartfelt talks with Kevin.
• December 2, I needed a nice long afternoon with her. Lion King.
• December 3, I don't know what to say. There is so much. I had not kissed someone in so long...
• December 4, father-son cooking adventures.
• December 5, I like that I'm remembering people's smells now. When I recognized Courtney by her smell it made us both happy.
• December 6, I love the grill.
• December 7, Jeneva is now in with my family. Dinner with everyone!
• December 8, Coby shadowed! I miss SOR sometimes.
• December 9, she touch my stomach. Nobody does that. Yahtzee!
• December 10, all I write about on this things is Jeneva. But don't want to stop. I trusted her with myself today.
• December 11, we made damn good grilled cheese.
• December 12, Playing really loud for the whole school.
• December 13, Dancing backstage with Scott and Julia.
• December 14, My teachers are actually really good.
• December 15, (Forgot to save entry for today)
• December 16, Dancing backstage with Ashe and Michael
• December 17, good show, "Juniper" rocks. I'm glad I have Jeneva to take me from bad parties.
• December 18, Lazy Lazy Lazy day. and I loved it.
• December 19, getting leaves for her mom. Marching band was so cool.
• December 20, candle-lit dinner then snuggling. So, yeah.
• December 21, nesting. Pooh. She fell asleep.
• December 22, she understands me so well. On another note, she used my ear to make my body go crazy.
• December 23, I really enjoy giving gifts.
• December 24, got a sick multi-tool from uncle Chris!
• December 25, got to spend Christmas at the Jimreivat house, so nice.
• December 26, feeling good about Navajo trip, movie with the sister.
• December 27, I finished... right there... only person to ever do that to me.
• December 28, we talk about things, that I could never talk about with anyone before. We have a very mature relationship.
• December 29, I love a nice big bonfire.
• December 30, Most amazing hike I've ever had, everything is better at the top of a mountain.
• December 31, ATV in the morning, sparkling cider at night.

Bye 2011