depression may kick my ass but ill kick harder this year.... (hopefully)

• eat & drink more regularly (atleast drink around 8 glasses of water and have 3 meals a day)
• go out/exercise more
• experiment with 3d modelling
• get atleast 8 hours of sleep
• learn python/lua
• play/experiment with different genres of games
• go to conventions (atleast 3 this year)
• save up around 5k

• everyday Im faced with uncomfortable situations i dont want to deal with but i have to because thats just how life is
• i hate myself too much and i think death is too merciful so im going to keep living to endure all the pain and suffering till i die of old age
• too weird to be normal and not weird enough for the weird

• Abby (Psycholonials)
  • it wasn't their fault though, they just made too much money and spent too much time with the wrong people. Listened to too much bullshit
  • Life is too short to worry about how the opinions of shitty people reflect on your reputation. Were just having some fun here
  • Like, certain types of dictators or old roman emperors made an artform out of staying in power by doing anything imaginable, no matter how nasty, just to keep themselves alive. But is that any way to live? What does that do to your soul? It probably just slowly destroys it
  • Thats why i pulled back, because it hurts too much to feel complicit in every fucked up turn this takes! Do you know what emotional abuse is??? If you say youre goi...

• kangkong
• tomatoes
• cabbage
• corn
• mushrooms
• broccoli
• spinach
• okra
• kalabasa
• cauliflower

birthdays:

• online
  • P 4/22
  • W 4/13
  • B 5/12
  • C/E 7/2
  • S 11/?
  • G 12/3
• offline
  • A 7/3
  • D 8/3
  • T 8/23
  • J 9/7
  • N/Y 9/19
  • C 10/4
  • G/M 11/15
  • TK/C 11/12
  • S/G 11/17
• offline relatives

tldr: i love you guys!!!

• Pia
  • Im so glad i met you, even though we don't talk as much anymore you'll always be my bestest of friend and im glad even though we had a grace period where we didnt talk completely you and i still were able to reconnect. Ill always love you forever and ever man
• Everie/Mett
  • You are like a sister i never had, you were both there for my ups and downs and i can never thank you enough for everything you've done for me, im so glad i met you through Undertale back then lol, i dont know where id be if we didnt meet
• Wyatt
  • You are awesome and i enjoy talking with ...