• You're all I need - and maybe some faith would do me good.
• And the stars were just old light
• Now that, I'm older / my heart, colder / I can see that it's a lie.
• Leave all your love and your longing behind / You can't carry it with you if you want to survive.
• Ma famille set me free / Throw my ashes into the sea.
• I want you to notice when I'm not around.
• I think you're crazy, maybe, / I will see you in the next life.
• We hope that you choke, that you choke.
• And I can't face the evening straight / You can offer me escape / Houses move and houses speak / If you take me there you'll get relief.
• What if there's always gloves in the sink? And what if I'm not what you think - I ...

A breakdown of the heritage.

• The entirety of my immediate family, mom and dad's side both, including all cousins, lives within fifteen minutes walking distance from each other in the best city in the world, Chengdu. My parents are the only exception.
• My mother and father have known each other since they were born. Their respective mothers have known each other since they were born. My grandmas are besties. They live across the street from each other. I can't believe how convenient it is that their children are married!
• My maternal grandmother was a model during the civil war. Her village sided with the Kuomintang. Chiang Kai-Shek once visited her high school. The school selected her to present a flower to Chiang as part of a greeting ceremony. After the communists won, they blacklisted her. The defini...

• Making pumpkin bread <3
• Road trips with an mp3 and a book
• Sleeping in the car
• Talking about random obscure awesome stuff beyond my little LG head's understanding with people I like
• Making character sketches in math class
• Generally not paying attention in math class
• When I tell other people something I find interesting and they find it interesting too (like the meaning of the word weltschmerz)
• Talking about favourite whatever's with people I like
• Listening to the stories of people I like/find interesting
• Fake funny accents
• Nutella
• A solid round of debate in which I don't humiliate myself

• ...And I too felt ready to live my life again. As if this great outburst of anger had purged all my ills, killed all my hopes, I looked up at the mass of signs and stars in the night sky and laid myself open for the first time to the benign indifference of the world. And finding it so much like myself, in fact so fraternal, I realized that I'd been happy, and that I was still happy. For the final consummation and for me to feel less lonely, my last wish was that there should be a crowd of spectators at my execution and that they should greet me with cries of hatred.

They're going to hate me, but it's okay, because I get to say "Hannibal, I packed your lunch with Dunkaroos" everyday.

Boy

• Hannibal
• Lee
• Bill
• Mal
• Abel
• Helo
• Mendel
• Aja
• Hadrian
• Sirius
• Noah
• Samson

Girl

• Hadley
• Hadrian
• Trinity

Brace yourself. There are many. This is all I ever think about when I have insomnia, or in this case, a TOK draft D. Most of these are courtesy of Christopher Hitchens op-eds...

• paroxysm
  • sudden outburst
• weltschmerz
  • if you know me well enough to be creeping this, I have probably explained this one to you many times
• sycophant
  • self-seeking flatterer
• pith
  • the white stuff around an orange
• aquitard

Post-grad tour plans

• Visit dad in Ulaanbataar, ride a camel, see that crazy square headed wolf in Gobi that I saw on Planet Earth
• Seoul with mom
• Beijing friends
• Guangzhou old home
• Chengdu family
• Xi'an help auntie teach English
• New York w/ Joy (March)

Sometime in this life

• Moscow
• Prague
• Warsaw
• Helsinki
• Pripyat
• Vienna
• North Tanzania (Serengeti, Kilimanjaro)
• Maasai Mara in Kenya
• Victoria Falls

• the bible
• all the boring stuff ib gives me like hard times
• mother night - kurt vonnegut
• brave new world, properly this time
• gravity's rainbow - thomas pynchon (sometime in my life. not now, though)
• entire lotr trilogy - tolkien
• freakonomics
• and wikinomics
• never let me go
• the wonderful lightness of being
• life of pi
• ender's game
• starship troopers
• consider phlebas/the player of games - iain banks
• the great gatsby
• the origins of the second world war - ajp taylor

I'm eager.

• ECON 101 (cap)
• MATH 104/105
• ECON 102 (cap)
• POLI 100 (cap)
• PHIL 100 (cap)
• ASTU 100 (cap)
• CPSC 111
• CPSC 211
• STAT 200
• GEOG 122

There aren't many.

• awkward
  • lacking social graces
  • I hate how ubiquitous (!) this word is in my life. I really need to find a synonym, but nothing compares...
• pulchritudinous
  • beautiful
• bias
  • a systematic attempt to distort information to suit one's inclinations.
• sardonic
  • bitter, scornful derision
• education
  • the act of imparting or acquiring general knowledge

• if you can do a half-assed job of anything, you're a one-eyed man in the kingdom of the blind
• humor is an almost physiological response to fear
• beware of the man who works hard to learn something, learns it, and finds himself no wiser than before... he is full of murderous resentment of people who are ignorant without having come by their ignorance the hard way
• 1492. as children we were taught to memorize this year with pride and joy as the year people began living full and imaginative lives on the continent of north america. actually, people had been living full and imaginative lives on the continent of north america for hundreds of years before that. 1492 was simply the year sea pirates began to rob, cheat, and kill them.

- In all your travels, have you ever seen a star go supernova?

- No.

- No? Well, I have. I saw a star explode and send out the building blocks of the Universe. Other stars, other planets and eventually other life. A supernova! Creation itself! I was there. I wanted to see it and be part of the moment. And you know how I perceived one of the most glorious events in the universe? With these ridiculous gelatinous orbs in my skull! With eyes designed to perceive only a tiny fraction of the EM spectrum. With ears designed only to hear vibrations in the air.

- I designed you to be as human as possible.

- I don't want to be human! I want to see gamma rays! I want to hear X-rays! And I want to - I want to smell dark matter! Do you see the absurdity of what I am? I can't even express these things properly b..._But I know I want to reach out with somet..._ And feel the wind of a supernova flowing...