in this lifetime

• build many meaningful relationships, write many love letters, give many gifts
• develop many hobbies and continue pursuing my current ones! collect and finish many journals, develop an ink collection for my pens, continue being open to learning!
• write write write a lot!! take notes as i explore my life; translate all the love and emotion in my heart onto paper
• find a calling that speaks to me (doesn't have to be a career choice or a college degree, i just want to find Something)
• join an ndmo, be someone for the nation
• to know the philippines; visit its provinces

"i took a deep breath and listened to the old brag of my heart. i am, i am, i am" —sylvia plath

• list of lists. to pursue.
• interests i want to deepen, things to take root
• hobbies and media

01 —literature

• heart! — getting acquainted with poetry, read more poetry books.
• filipino lit — ღ
• etc. for warmth, — ღ

02 —films

• filipino cinema/dokyu. korean new wave. asian cinema. studio ghibli

03 —hobbies; i want to enjoy things without taking myself too seriously

archival; a non-exhaustive booklist

FOR WARMTH

• moominvalley novels
• on the jellicoe road
• the scorpio races
• this is how you lose the time war
• banana heart summer
• bluets
• almond
• writers and lovers
• the house on mango street
• crying in h mart
• convenience store woman
• braiding sweetgrass

PROGRESSIVE READING

• pedagogy of the oppressed
• pasyon and revolution
• 1894
• philippine society and revolution
• EKSUM

filipino literature.

• a small list i came across recently
• tikim: essays on philippine food and culture by doreen g. fernandez
• banana heart summer by merlinda bobis

january books

• letters to a young poet
• n.p.
• dead-end memories

film

• when harry met sally
• past lives
• shiva baby

march

• strange intimacies
• intimations

april

film

• us and them

because of the overwhelming manifestations of growing up

• my lola's house in tandang sora. i feel bleary everytime i step into their home and am greeted by fluorescent lighting in the common area leading to their bedrooms, then to the dining room. they've set up concrete walls and stairs outside to ward off floods, and we have to step over a barrier to enter through the gate.
• taho. fruit salad (i used to love nata de coco in fruit salad). drinking coffee out of measuring cups for rice in secret.
• sketchbooks and sharpening pencils
• bicycles
• my village. waking early and heading to the soccer field (or whatever that patch of grass is supposed to be) with papa and anjo
• pampanga
• my lolo's house in mandaluyong. i've alwa...