- If God forgives me then I am built of shame
- What better form of repentance than to suffer?
- Afterall I am not alive if I am not being punished. I am not alive if I am not truly afraid of God
- If God asks me to take my own life, I wouldn’t want to do so. If God had sentenced me to death, I would not be able to accept it
- I am aware than I am no different than man
- We are all humans, not monkeys.
- We are human, and we are conscious
- Therefore, we know the meaning of suffer.
- I am afraid of sin because I am mortal, but I am none other than a hypocrite
- Those who fear sin fear their selves
- Greed, Gluttony, Lust,
- Sin cannot be justified, but I am so full of it
- The human species derives from sin. We ask for forgiveness from God, but God is merely just a faith
- We seek faith because we have tainted
- We punish ourselves with what we have caused.
- So will God forgive me nonetheless?
- When I cannot accept my own death because I am afraid of it?
- Because I am no different than a man, I am a sinner
- When I die, I expect hell. But if I have not sinned then will I be taken to heaven?
- It is hard to believe that such a place called heaven exists
- But that is how faith works no?
- For I am just a man and not a monkey.
- I am made to sin, and I am made to repent
- I was given a life to suffer under the lessons that God entrusts me to go through
- A monkey is a living being, but a monkey is not aware of such a concept named God
- And I am a human, not a monkey. I am aware and I am a subject of punishment who desires freedom.
- Freedom from?
- Freedom from this mindset that we have created to feed this insatiable hunger to repent for all our sins
- Because we have demonized ourselves for making the very small mistakes, we have demonized ourselves for individuality
- But this freedom, do I truly deserve another chance if I don't even acknowledge my role?
- Yes, I believe in God, because I am poor. I am really a helpless soul in need of salvation. I sin for it is the only natural response for a being like me…
- I am afraid for who I am
- I am ashamed for who I am,
- Dear God,
- Put me in my place and tell me that I am a human, not a monkey
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