just having problems with work again the big reason i had to quit is just my health was sorta deteriorating, the big thing that bothers me is my breathing, my lung capacity has been really shit compared to last few years and im embarrassed to admit it’s possibly because ive picked up smoking again. i know it’s bad, and being honest i wasn’t feeling so great these past weeks i notice i’ve been eating less and being less productive. just a few weeks ago if i recall it i almost felt like passing out while working a normal shift. i work register and server at a restaurant btw so you expect to be walking constantly. not great. and financially it’s been bothering me a lot. my work salary hasn’t been benefiting me at all, especially since i have been working too many hours and not even getting a good pay at the end of the week :/ it’s just so demoralizing and the work environment isn’t all the greatest i’ve been losing less and less motivation to get out of bed to work, and i’ve even been losing motivation to draw which is like the biggest way i cope with everything i just feel so tired, i’m glad i finally dropped this job, it wasn’t my first pick anyway. now my big problem is just finding another one that can sustain me better :/ this is the worst. on top of that i have to worry about my hospital bills, my parents are already helping me with that but i feel bad. we dont have a whole lot of money to throw out either. i wish they’d ask for help from our relatives, who have way more money than us. they probably don’t because they think its selfish, but at the same time it sometimes feels like its the only hope