i really try to love the people i have. because i do have people who care. but the people who care are only there at my highest. who’s gonna care for me when i want to be at my lowest? when you have no one at your ugliest point, you just hate everything, you doubt everything, everyone. i try to remind myself of the people who love me. but when i ask myself if people actually love me and it’s not just because i love others, i don’t know what to think. i’m there for other people, and i want to be there for other people, but it gets tiring after a while of not having anyone who will be there for you. if i’m not actively reminding people i love them, who will love me?