what's new?

• ✔ jun. 9: pentecost sunday
• ✔ jun. 9: detective pikachu w shari !! :0)
• ✔ jun. 13: 50 years since those precious press conference pictures of mick were taken at hyde park
  • i love u squishie boy
• ✔ jun. 13: steve-o's birthday!!
• ✔ jun. 16: father's day
• ✔ jun. 16: bloomsday — the entirety of joyce's novel ulysses takes place on june 16, 1904
• ✔ jun. 19: nickie's birthday (*๓´╰╯`๓)
• ✔ jun. 20: visit abigail in dc!! ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و
• ✔ jun. 21: summer solstice

goals

• ✔ finish first draft of poem cycle before nick's birthday
• ✔ keep practice journal all month
• ✔ make first prints of the month
• maybe...learn mick's solo in dead flowers? MAYBE?
  • me @ myself: ambitious queen we stan

inspirations

• angus mckinnon young
• mick taylor
• the war poets
  • particularly wilfred owen
• derek jarman's sketchbooks

obsessions

• acca dacca ꒰｡ › ·̮ ‹ ｡꒱
• that feeling of carrying around an idea for a poem all day, and the bubbly anticipation of putting it on paper :0)
• the jackass boys...... jeez louise i love my family!
• mad men u_u mark appeared on screen for 0.5 seconds and i blacked out thanks
• war dramas, esp. vietnam!

writing

• untitled
  • poem cycle for the dearly departed
• assorted poems for pro poeta

watching

• true detective — season one
• viva la bam — season one
• mad men — seasons 1 + 2

pro poeta

• issue 1 — week of june 4, 2019
  • bird bones
  • i saw two pennies atop an old gravestone
  • sweet golden sunlight
  • dawn of the third day
• issue 2 — week of june 11, 2019
  • the butterfly effect
  • sidewalk cracks
  • little earthquakes
  • the then and the now
• issue 3 — week of june 18, 2019
  • end of all times part 3
  • letters like knives
  • how to have tea at your best friend's grandmother's house without mentioning vietnam or the fact that you two are secretly lovers

moments

• not being able to find jackass 2 in any library system in the entire state....and then finding it at the thrift store for $2
  • the WAY my mom screamed !
• first major haircut in... forever! bye bye rapunzel hair
• aching fingertips, breezes blowing through the window, scribbling away in a little journal and humming old forgotten tunes
• running into alex at the theatre,, "how's my favorite composer doing?" WOW that's my baby ! perhaps i miss the only manager who ever mattered !
• arcade w shari !!! the....abomination patrick that came out of the vending machine i litchrally lost my mind
• finishing nick's poem cycle.....feels good m8
• dc with abigail !! :0) national gallery, the gauguin self-portrait (a: i'm scared??), chatting with the cashier abt my dalí, lots of iced coffee, union market in the morning, donuts and bagels and laughing all the way up and down the metro line
• my new metallica shirt......the alter ego jumped out !
• mom, seeing the tiny picture of charlie sheen circa 1986 that i have in my wallet: that is... so strange of you to do, dana...

crushes

• johnny knoxville, steve-o, and bam margera
  • the holy trifecta of idiots
• mickie,, mr. mick taylor!! baby i love u! :0)
• dave mustaine,,,,,,the power he has
• late 80s mark moses... high school sweetheart lookin gets things off the top shelf for old ladies lookin love of my entire life lookin dude
• martin sheen....! hansum!!!!

quotes

• ❝ go all the way with it. do not back off. for once, go all the goddamn way with what matters. ❞
  • — ernest hemingway
• ❝ whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. begin it now. ❞
  • — william h. murray
• ❝ i want to say something about bad writing. i’m proud of my bad writing. everyone is so intelligent lately, and stylish. fucking great. i am proud of philip guston’s bad painting, i am proud of baudelaire’s mamma’s boy goo goo misery. sometimes the lurid or shitty means having a heart, which’s something you have to try to have. excellence nowadays is too general and available to be worth prizing: i am interested in people who have to find strange and horrible ways to just get from point A to point B. ❞
  • — ariana reines
• ❝ someone said to me, early on in film school... if you can photograph the human face you can photograph anything, because that is the most difficult and most interesting thing to photograph. if you can light and photograph the human face to bring out what’s within that human face, you can do anything. ❞
  • — roger deakins
• ❝ the poem inside is perfect; i have a very clumsy retrieval process for getting it out. ❞ — carolyn kizer
• ❝ even if you have nothing to write, write and say so. ❞
  • — marcus tullius cicero
• ❝ i don’t really decide what the core of the story is before i write. i write to figure out what the story is. and i think the characters end up talking to you and telling you what they want to be doing and what is important to them. so in some ways, your job is to listen as much as it is to write. and to listen to what it is these characters that are coming through you are telling you. ❞
  • — greta gerwig on screenwriting