what's new?

• ✓ jul. 4: independence day
• ✓ jul. 4: liberty road begins
• ✓ jul. 5: two years since i bought my trig textbook circa 1955 at the used bookstore and it contained a mysterious scrap of paper that read july 5 tucked in the pages
• ✓ jul. 11: one year since no river too wide
• ✓ jul. 12: grandma's birthday!!
• ✓ jul. 14: bastille day!
• ✓ jul. 18: eye appointment @ 1:00

goals

• ✓ write! :0)

obsessions

• belatedly hitting my leonardo dicaprio obsession like *sees the departed once* *can think of nothing else for three weeks straight*
• lynch, tarantino, nic pizzolatto! my screenwriting kings (ꈍ ᴗ ꈍ✿)

moments

• i love sunday mornings... slow, light-filled hours, a new (old) paris review interview sitting in my inbox, waiting to be read. the thrill when i realize it's a writer i adore – joan didion, george saunders – and spending hours reading, taking notes, learning from the masters of my craft. hours of reassurance and good tidings from old voices and new...
• the first cherries of the season... thinking abt thomas blake.... thinking abt that tweet that's like "is your comfort character dead or are you happy".... many thoughts heart full of ache and ripe red cherries....
• lying around in a big t-shirt and underwear, writing, listening to tarantino interviews, reaching over justie every now and then to pin a new scene on the wall above my bed, my own makeshift screenwriter's cork board

good things about the month

• the friendly, water-dimpled pages of my graph paper notebook; a beloved muji pen from new york that i thought i'd lost; al pacino circa 1975 coming to me in a dream and telling me he wanted to produce my play; planting my sunflowers and zinnias in the garden; raspberry cream candies; patti smith books in the mail; buying sugar cubes!!; taking care of the geraniums, my new favorite greenhouse to spend time in; delmore schwartz poems; plant nursery + thrift store with dad; firmly imprinting on leo's character in the departed; mint infused lattes; aaron sorkin interviews; the blistering joy that is finally writing auguries, after months and months of planning; blouses and movies from the thrift store; finding a pair of circular knitting needles for only $2! i can finally learn how to knit socks now; abigail passing her nursing exam; early saturday mornings in the garden; my lovely mutuals on wattpad! reading each others books and screaming in the comments, leaving deluges of heart emojis; aaron doing his phd in los angeles; falling asleep with devotion under my pillow; cub sport; wes anderson; the gossamer red sunsets of july