• crystal
• rune
• triangles
• geometric
• mandala

• who am i?
• what do i want?
• who do i want?
• show me what i need to see
• what is my next step?
• how do i stop resenting my brother?
• where do i find motivation?
• what should i study?
• show me where i lost the ring my aunt sent me
• how do i improve my photography?
• what do i value the most?
• how do i change my relationship with food?

• SCP-914 - The Clockworks
• SCP-500 - Panacea
• SCP-2412 - Cassandra Bot
• SCP-294 - The Coffee Machine

• extremely loud & incredibly close - jonathan safran foer
• everything is illuminated - jonathan safran foer
• egghead - bo burnham
• umberto eco
• the art of asking: how i learned to stop worrying and let people help
• 1984 - george orwell
• big magic - elizabeth gilbert
• the last lecture
• an unquiet mind - kay redfield jamison
• the places that scare you - pema chodron

• i love when people talk about me near me like i'm not within earshot.
• i used to care a lot about finding new music and knowing current artists. i feel i've fallen too far behind in the past few years.
• my favorite place to be is resting my head on someone's chest or back and hearing and feeling the vibrations of their voice through that spot

• lights by ellie goulding
• infinity on high by fall out boy
• random album title by deadmau5
• pure heroine by lorde
• ocean eyes by owl city
• in rainbows by radiohead
• xx by the xx
• melodrama by lorde

• anheuser busch tour
• new belgium tour
• brighton brewery/restaurant

kitchen stuff!

• plates n cups n bowls
• pots n pans!!!
• spice rack!
• kitchen table + chairs
• blender
• coffee maker
• toaster
• microwave
• cookie sheets and cutting boards and dish rack
• knives

bathroom

• towels
• shower curtain / liner
• rug
• soap and toothbrush holder
• scale

living room

• civics - us government
• libertarianism
• mbti
• american history
• geography (world)
• music theory
• human sexuality
• sociology
• people management
• monsanto
• latin
• greek/roman mythology
• american literature
• rotoscoping

• wildlife sanctuary
• lookout mountain
• san luis valley
• hanging lake
• denver museum of nature and science
• RMNP

• the music that's playing does not at all fit the moment.
• tripping and laughing at yourself, but nobody's around.
• when the wind is blowing around a lot of trees, it sounds just like the ocean.
• emotions betray us every step of the way.
• riding a bike feels like flying sometimes.
• whispering to yourself and talking to yourself and then telling yourself you're crazy.
• we become our parents, even if we don't want to or don't realize it.
• being alone in a room of a house that's not your own.
• running to the mailbox and then running back, just for the hell of it.
• orange and black bugs swarming to a dead mouse.

• growth
• i fucking literally had fifty ideas for this while i was at work i fucking hate my brain and the way my supervisor breathes down our necks like he's paying us out of his son's college fund or his fucking toupe savings jar and i hate the way inspiration for my writing and my photos and my pathetic life only seems to strike when i'm stuffing wadding or setting core or some other menial repetitive task that never seems to end
• why is it that when i have all the time and all the resources and all the freedom, my mind shuts me out. who do you think you are?
• oh, i've remembered some
• young adult novels about gay males and why i loved them
• fausty the snow man
• friendship

• NO JUDGING
• NO COMPLAINING

monthly income : roughly 2300

• monthly expenses :
  • rent-1000
  • car/house insurance-140
  • water-50
  • power-150
  • internet-65
  • phone-50
  • squarespace-10
  • planned parenthood donation-20
  • netflix-8
• total so far :1493
• _Other
  • dsc-9
  • food-230
  • gas-75
• trimonthly expenses :
  • contacts-65

• passport (100)
• ring (75)
• tattoo (??)
• docs (140)
• new phone (250-450)
• lens (400)
• external flash (200)
• singing bowl (100)
• desk/chair (150)
• external hard drive (120)
• new camera body (1700 lmao)
• EIP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(40)
• glasses (40-50)
• license plate renewal (115)
• watch (30)
• hiking boots (50?)
• running shoes (40?)
• lappy (1500)
• fix car speakers (30)
• rattie hammock (10)
• strap (10)

• meet in the middle
• innuendo bingo
• edward forty hands
• type video
• making friends online & image