- Broke down crying just prior to a lecture after seeing my best friend's mother, just because she's in France and I have never gone nine months without seeing her before (it's only been a few weeks so far) and I miss her and her mum reminded me of her.
- Thought a lot about a boy who I once was friends with. Wondered how, out of all the friends I have ever lost, he is the only one I actually honestly regret and who I would give anything to have back. Apologized in my head for hitting him when we were kids, for treating him like crap as our interactions dwindled in high school - I don't remember much but I know I wasn't very nice, I think I took my problems out on him or something... I don't know. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. And I'm sorry we weren't better friends. (Because I can never actually tell him in person that I'm so so sorry).
- Repeatedly told myself that if I could just hold it together for today, I could get home and break and it would be all right.
- Cried on the way home from the bus stop.
- Studied minimally for my test tomorrow cause I'm sick and tired and I feel wiped out.
- No, I'm not ok.
may 28 2012 ∞
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