january

• did lots of journaling about my past and recovering from certain things
• had late night conversations with my sister- we talked about beauty standards to ed, the conversation was beneficial :)

febuary-july

• felt completely drain, gave myself a mental break, rewatching engeki haikyu clips
• tested positive for covid
• suicidal thoughts
• anxiety, failed job interviews
• learning how to crochet

august

• mental breakdowns, nightmares, watching peaceful vlogs to cope
• babysitting a friendly cat
• girls generation comeback!!!
• moving to a new home

september

• went overseas with family for a holiday, a lot of unwanted memories resurfaced, cried a lot, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, intrusive thoughts, decided to take a warm bath and listen to music to cope. when we got back home, i did a lot of meditation and physical therapy

october

• meditation, pilates, physical therapy
• got back to reading!! (๑ > ᴗ < ๑)

november

• received an early birthday gift
• birdwatching
• suicidal thoughts, engaging in coping mechanisms
• busy days, spring cleaning
• been reading a lot of manhwas lately with badass female leads and i'm loving it so far!! (༎ຶ⌑༎ຶ)♡
• got back to dancing
• anxiety

december

• anxiety
• relaxing days
• reading
• went to indonesia for a holiday. watch the sunset, went island hopping, water rafting and see the waterfalls. homesick. was also struggling with some insecurities while i was there.. spend some nights crying. i still don't know how to deal with them but hopefully i'll learn how to manage it.
• sick...