medical conditions

• bilateral sensorineural hearing loss (cookie bite configuration)
  • comes with its very own chronic tinnitus!
• moderately high astigmatism

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mental illnesses & phobias

• phobias
  • agoraphobia
  • autophobia
  • athazagoraphobia
  • coulrophobia
  • nyctophobia
  • fear of riding in cars (if certain people are driving / if we're going too fast)
• professionally diagnosed
  • severe major depressive disorder
  • post-traumatic stress disorder
  • generalised anxiety disorder
  • social anxiety
• undiagnosed / self-diagnosed
  • undiagnosed eating disorder (i saw an eating disorder specialist a couple times, but decided not to continue treatment against medical advice; i was never told what i had, if i had anything)
  • self-diagnosed bipolar disorder (i used to take mood stabilizers since i have pretty bad mood swings! and my therapist has asked me about my symptoms regarding bipolar, and i told her honestly about my high and low moods. it's just a matter of professionally diagnosing me with it / telling me whether i have it or not!)
  • self-diagnosed avoidant personality disorder (reading up on apd, i realise i share a lot of traits with those who have it. honestly?? it almost perfectly describes me innately, although i tend to handle myself better outwardly for fear of seeming idiotic :/)

i do not make a habit of self-diagnosing; in fact, i try to refrain from doing so until i can get a hold of my therapist!! i don't need any comments about self-diagnosing, i know the dangers and how dumb it is. labels, for me, are something important because it takes away the unknown and replaces it with something i know; it's a sort of comfort thing for me, so by putting a label on something i may or may not have tides me over for the time being until i can get a professional diagnosis.