for some reason there are people in this world who will always remind me that nothing is fair. people who keep me in toe that perhaps no one ever really changes. people who have made the effort to make sure I know that they can impact very pertinent areas of my life and to never forget it...

• Sophia - a girl I went to grade school with, she made a particular effort in making sure I felt like a loser. Particularly in 5th grade when she and her friends announced to the class that they didn't think I deserved the lead in the school play because I wasn't popular. Thanks Sophia.
• Serj - the guy I lost my V-card to. He basically used me as a tool to make himself feel better about how pathetic he was. He dated me and later referred to me as his "pretty ex girlfriend" like we all have name tags, and thats mine. He continues to tell people he could have me back, and dude, its over.
• Drew - the guy who asked me to Junior prom because we were in class together and actually liked each other, unfortunately he revoked his date request because his "bros" were taking girls who were all in the same group, a "popular" group. Awesome?
• Joel - My "boyfriend" in LA. Previously this list would state Chelsea.. I've overcome my feelings about her because she and I were both at a loss in this situation and for that we have truly reconciled. I "dated" him while attending CalArts, while he dated Sea.. I really cared about him, that was the sad part. She did too, but things were always complicated (or so it seemed?).. He was enamored by her, she was weird (like me, actually), she was so interesting to him... Me? I was.. boring.. easy, not like that, I was agreeable to him, his parents, it was too easy for him to just be with me.. no chase in that sense. He wanted to be tormented and dark, but it wasn't him, I know it never was and still isn't. But being cold is his strong suit and I never could change that.

I'd love to just... Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind these people out of my life and memory