i want you to know that just because i’m angry doesn’t mean i don’t love you. i’m angry because i love you and you make me feel and i care about you. it may not be a rational reason that i’m angry about but we both have our reasons to be upset, right?

i may be aggravated but that doesn’t mean that i want to leave you and i’m not going to. blocking you, cutting you out is not a solution to me and it’ll just hurt me more.

if you did something and you know it, please apologize only if you truly feel sorry. i will appreciate it and it will most likely calm me down. if i’m angry for no good logical reasoning and you don’t feel sorry, please forgive momma. i can only hope that time passes quickly and i can let it go.

maybe to you, i'm being silly. but momma doesn't like being angry either and i may have a reason, albeit a stupid one, for feeling what i do. trust that i will forgive you whether you apologize or feel like you did anything or not.

i hope i'm not giving you any attitude, haha.

god, i hope you never open this.

i'm so afraid to lose you. is that just me? it probably is. i make you shut down when i... feel and i'm sorry. i like to think you wouldn't leave me but i can't help but know you probably would if i irritated you enough. just like that. gone. no longer dealt with. sometimes i think that maybe it's momma that isn't good for you, puppy. but either way, i'm always going to be doing my best to be better for you. you deserve the best.