- 160301 my mom was supposed to go to divi with the guy who will make our costumes but the betch was no show and quit on us so i had no choice but to go with mom to divi. unluckily for me, our shoot was also that day and my phone can't be contacted for some silly reasons so i was super late on our shooting ;;;; also it was my first time to wear contacts. it looks super weird!!!! but cool. so tired and disappointed at myself
- 160306 i had no plans to go to ojt today but my co-st told me my ct was looking for me so i had no choice but to go. when i went there my ct said my students were looking for me. then, one of them went to the office and told me justine was sick and had to go home so i went there worriedly. when i got there, i didn't see any commotion and my student wasn't sick at all???? then miles was playing the guitar and suddenly everyone started singing just the way you are. it clicked to me that they had a surprise prepared for me. one by one they gave me flowers and after a while i started crying. all my pent-up emotions and stress burst out of my chest. at that moment, i felt so special and recognized.
- 160307 today was the start of the pre pageant activities. lost my phone fuck it. also i did something super embarrasing today (((i continued with the plan of doing that fucking puppet talent part god im such a 'puppet' to my uncle why did i fuckign agree to him ughhhh))) anyway in the evenign we finally did the photoshoot and i did pro make up omfg i looked super pretty i lav et
- 160309 seminar on q&a today i was so pumped up i was actually so happy while answering so i wasn't nervous at all bc after all it's just a practice lol. and that's why it gave me the confidence to compete on friday.
- 160310 we did variety show today. fashion show for zalora. was slouching the whole time but anyway i survived it. the girl who was the representative last year did my make up and i looked so bomb. too bad i didn't have a phone to remember this gorgeous memory. yikes. anyway we practiced like the whole month of feb and first week of march jsut ot fuck up the actual show lol. idk what happened but in the middle of dancing the song was playing earlier than it's supposed to and me and everyone's just like wtf is happening. truly memorable.
- 160311 pageant day!!!!!!!!! can't believe i am the 1st runner up!!!! wasn't expecting it all srsly. all i know is i was just enjoying it and doing my best albeit the number of times i knew i was fucking up the blockings every time during the pageant. but the most epic thing that happened was i almost fucked up big time my q&a tbh i was so confident bc it was about k12 program. man that's my specialty. but it was so hard when ur up there and all these spotlights are trying their best to blind you and these supporters from the other colleges trying to sabotage you mid speech. yeah that kind of thing. good thing i bounced back up at the end and finsihed my speech. lol. and when i was called for top 3, i was actually the first one to be called, i was fucking suprised man im pretty sure i looked so dumb up there trying to comprehend the situation. and i wasn't even thinking of what place im gonna get or if im gonna win all i know is i was in the top 3 lol. i even forgot the prizes. realized it when they were handing me the envelopes and the hawkbag haha.
- 160314 it's hard when everyone's looking at you bc they know you. lol. i didn't think about the consequences of joining that show.
apr 7 2016 ∞
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