I miss everything about you. Can't believe that I still want you. Well, I guess I just miss..

• When you would come to school in your houseshoes & some tubesocks because you were too tired to walk around in gym shoes.
  • & during Geometry, I'd play footsies with you until one of your sandals slipped off & I'd walk around the classroom with it on. lmao.
• Having burping contests with you.
• Coming over to your house in the morning & sleeping in your bed until the afternoon.
• Sitting front row at your track meets & screaming for you until my throat got sore.
• Sitting on your lap.
• Kissing you.
• The waves in your hair.

CONSUMING

• Air.
• Bits of broccoli from between my teeth.

CONTEMPLATING

• When to begin cleaning my room.
• Whether or not I'll do my hair today.
• Going back to bed.
• What to wear to work tomorrow.
• Whether or not I should call Fudgems back.
  • not likely.

WEARING

• Red & dark gray basketball shorts.
• Pinacate Middle School gym shirt.
• Pink chain with Hello Kitty & heart-shaped lock charm.
• Rainbow kandi bracelet.

WISHING

Basically, I haven't been the world's biggest ball of sunshine lately. & this is just a list of the shit that's been bringing me down..

• Tony.
  • Keeps calling from jail thinking that we're still together, when really? We haven't been a real couple since last year. All this time has just been wasted & I've got to tell him that I'm just not in love anymore , & it's over. For real, this time.
• Jarvis.
  • Holy fuck, man. I miss everything about him. & you know, it just isn't fair how things can just change the way they did when we were so in sync & so in love & just so happy together. When we're apart, it feels like we're different people, when the fact of the matter is that he's the only one that knows me.
• Everyone else.
  • That isn't him. Well, it's my fault. I'm ..._I'm hurting alot of people._ I'm leading them on so far, I think it'd be easier if I could just be... If that makes any sense..

CONSUMING

• Water.

CONTEMPLATING

• Taking a nap.
• Grabbing Mama's laptop from her room.
• What to wear to work tomorrow.
• If I should get up early as fuck again.
  • nahhhh.
• What new angle to take on my article.
• Filing my nails.
• Taking a nap.

WEARING

• My new favorite black pushup bra.
• Black & lace spaghetti strap.
• Black & white basketball shorts.
• Giant diamond studs.

WISHING