i am hesitant but i would like to organize my thoughts

the things i like

• logical passion pursuer. not impulsive like i am.
• able to do math
• intellectual conversations are not out of the question
• i don't have to explain what i'm doing, only the normal amount
• i feel safe
• i cannot guess his thoughts, nor his next move. i am always on my toes

i think i was so wrong about you, out of fear and only wanting to guard my heart. i am still doing that, but with less resilience

my own problems

• i am not the only girl and i never will be
• i want to believe your words
• dysmorphic dumbass

beige flags

• he says things he wants without saying he wants them, sometimes by saying they're things i want