• there's a standpipe that is important for some unknown reason.
• to get to one side to the other takes about a five minute drive.
• "downtown" is a square of buildings that once housed a few cute shops, but now only houses a tanning salon and my aunt's carpet business that will be dead in a few years.
• it used to have the highest percentage of millionaires out of any city in the country.
• people who live on brown avenue are the popular kids because they live on brown avenue.
• there are a lot of rednecks.
• the only businesses are banks and fast food restaurants. i dont understand why ANYONE moves there.
• but when they do, they come from the largest cities.

a fucking carnival in my honor. no one to wear black and my funeral. my parents/sister to know i'm bisexual. gabby to play "safe and sound"/"hallelujah" everyone to cuss out the fuckers who will pretend like they were my best friend. my ashes on all 7 continents.

• having a lot of alone time to think.
• horrible friends.
• good music, good memories, and the imaginary stories i've created observing strangers.
• the ideas concerning myself and that which surrounds me.
• my mental health.
• my parents' lifestyle.
• my weight and appearance.
• the friends i love more than i love myself.

• i find a significant other.
• i decide on my major and my future occupation.
• i find the inspiration to fucking finish something.
• i meet a lot of people who actually like me.
• i find the strength to tell my parents and my sister everything about me.
• i never lose contact with luke.
• i meet that best friend that i've never really had.
• i make really good grades and learn how to study properly.
• i pick my destination to study abroad.
• i hope these occur.