i’ve been having trouble sleeping lately. i rest for an average of 5 to 6 hours these days but still i lay in my bed for what feels like more. the other night i had an odd feeling in my chest. i seemed to miss everything i was and everyone i’d ever known. my heart beat against my ribcage, ricocheting through my mattress and into my ears; it was almost like my body was speaking to me and knew historically, i was hard of hearing. my heart felt awfully too large for body to handle that night. most nights it does. and i wondered if anyone ever thinks about me like that too.