as I feel my eyes getting heavy I start to think about the things I should say to you before it's too late, I should be with you and try harder but I can't, I'm really sorry, I've tried before and my stupid mind won't let me do it again so easily. I lose my breath at least once a day now, cause I hate the idea of losing your company. just... am I good enough? I don't think so... not for this, I'm not good enough to do it.