- swear less!!
- ✔ do a nice thing for someone else, every time the oppurtunity arises diet mtn dew for miss deborah
- say ma'am/sir more often
- give a duct tape wallet to that nice guy (brandon!) at the circle k
- do my own letter project
- ✔ overpass picture
- ✔ go to sluggos
- buy mcdonalds for the construction crew on scenic
- ✔ use my game force card
- panhandle
- create an underground newspaper
- make a thing in a jar
- make a postcard and send it to Post Secret
- ✔ stop falling in love with every guy who gives me attention
- ✔ lose weight without being obsessed i'm at 131 and no more obsessed than usual
- eat intuitively. so that my weight stablizes and i don't feel fucked all the time.
- ✔ get my room to look like i give a shit about it
- ✔ and then keep it that way
- go to new dehli
- ✔ stop looking at those stupid stories on aol yeah, im over it
- ✔ go to college in florida
- ✔ see the house i grew up in
- learn sign language
- stay overnight in a haunted house
- ✔ not take it personally when my boss is a bitch
- ✔ leave work at work.
- see another ghost
- ✔ have a good relationship with my brother
- write a novel... a GOOD novel.
- jump out of the passenger seat of a car and hit the walk button at a red light
- ✔ write a short story. i already did. that great stream of conciousness piece. my next goal is to...
- make a book of short stories i've written
- colour an entire colouring book
- show up at the airport with a bag and a passport and take the first flight available
- be scene (it seems you have to spend all your time showing how hardxcore you are)
- ✔ and have scene hair someone (cassidy of starbucks) complimented it. i think this is a scene it can get without being stupid. i plan on keeping it this way for a long while.
- recover
- fake my own death
- ✔ get some exercise every weekend
- ✔ shop less i'm keeping much better track of that all...
- love myself as much as possible.
- ✔ get my tattoos
- read more classic novels
- ✔ plan a Party senior girls sleepover... so fun!
- ✔ plan a co ed party
- stay awake for a day or two
- ✔ go to more shows 3oh!3!
- stop counting calories
- ✔ get over the shock of the car accident
- drive better
- ✔ keep my car looking spiffed looks niiice
- ✔ forgive my parents
- ✔ feel beautiful without foundation after prom before going to sleep :) i did
- ✔ feel beautiful without eye makeup
- ✔ be okay with having curly hair thats not perfectly styled do i love it and want to wear it that way all the time? no. but i am definitly okay with it.
- ✔ paint a picture lots
- ✔ get my digital pictures developed
- ✔ go by alaska i told all the friends at my mission trip what my middle name was, and they thought it was hilarious but a hit.
- ✔ try coping before b*****g march 1st i felt awful but i took care of myself and fully trusted in God.
- write down my feelings everyday
- have a food fight
- ✔ move out
- ✔ care less
- ✔ say what i want/mean to say yesterday, march 15th, i called hillary out. i still don't know how i feel about it.
- ✔ get a job i really love deliveries! yesssss. hope it stays good
- ✔ go out for dessert... only dessert.
- ✔ get tan so tan!
- ✔ stay cool
- identify 100 things that make me happy
- ✔ think of a new fantastic ice cream flavor
- ✔ get a new car that i love hurrah for big berta dos!
- go to a cemetery at night again
- ✔ be on tv i forgot. in sedona i was.
- ✔ watch a clockwork orange
- ✔ watch the clouds it was fantastic. God gave me a rainbow.
- fall asleep in the grass
- sleep outside
- ✔ lay by the sea
- ✔ continue to live instead of exist :)
- ✔ feel infinite again when he told me he loved me
- ✔ learn a hip hop dance march 9th i took a hip hop class! i feel so sore but so good
- go tubing again
- ✔ not be afraid of the ocean... but still respect it
- declutter
- go on a road trip to arizona and new mexico
- live in arizona
- live in california
- live in new mexico. or at least visit.
- meditate
- ✔ have more patience
- ✔ run occasionally im starting to really love it
- ✔ walk on the golf course at night again a new coping thing of mine
- ✔ get a flight to florida
- return my pdrcp
- ✔ get over kyle a friendship is better than anything i could have with kyle.
- ✔ and bobby i got stoned with him tuesday the 10th and i really think i only care for him as a friend
- ✔ and lizakowski
- ✔ and all those boys from high school
- be okay with platonics
- ✔ or tell him how i feel
- ✔ move on from my bullshit childhood
- ✔ forgive myself for the car
- ✔ chew my food thoroughly before i swallow
- write more poetry
- ✔ be okay with quiet
- ✔ be okay with being alone on a weekend night
- ✔ listen to new age thanks to aunt dorko, for this new kirtan chant music!
- ✔ turn off the tv when it's just background noise
- dive into the ocean from a cliff
- ✔ slide down a banister denver aquarium :)
- ✔ have a fun day on pearl street prom night and the med was beyond fun
- ✔ go on a road trip with no pre determined destination
- ✔ take a leap of faith i quit my job. i don't have a backup. well, i have old navy, but we all know there is no way in hell i'm going back. also, im going to uwf w/o ever seeing pensacola first
- disappear
- fall off the face of the earth for a few days
- ✔ be a mystery someone.. joseph? told me i am very mysterious
- have a hammock
- ✔ let go talking about my parents and my eating disorder today, 2.23.09, was totally one of those Let Go moments.
- ✔ scream into an empty space with nicole and bobby. i was pretty high at that point.
- ✔ cry more i have been crying a lot more in front of people. i think its healing
- ✔ feel more day and candlelight vigil. 2.23.09
- watch pulp fiction
- ✔ go get a creamslush so great. we shared testimonies
- ✔ which means asking him to... update: he asked me for my number
- and also do a drive through prank on someone
- ✔ stop thinking mean thoughts about m.s.
- ✔ i think that will happen when i stop feeling ashamed about what happened...
- love my thighs ugh. some girl at ae said, when i asked her about the shorts i was trying on "they make your thighs look fat. they arent, but you'd definitly be better off wearing shorts." FUCK
- read a scott f fitzgerald book... not great gatsby.
- tag more objects... not just a orange expo marker in a whole foods parking lot. although that was fantastical.
- ✔ see a movie outside
- ✔ watch slumdog outside
- ✔ make a mural seth and i are working on one
- ✔ swing at night
- ✔ get rid of my freshman year jeans... sell the buckle 27's and buy a nice fitting pair.
- learn sign language
- ✔ dont freak out over saki stuff
- go to melting pot again ( servers night )
- make a goofy answering machine message
- work at a supermarket
- ✔ get tan again
feb 14 2009 ∞
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