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(thank God for not having problems on the first because it was rough.)

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(*im worried about tonight, m5, because i just found out that seth is not that into me. that he doesnt want to get involved with anyone. that i am just another girl who he is friends with. and i know god has a plan but i cant help but think that this is about me, about me not being enough, and me NEVER getting anything mutual. i like so many guys but none like me back at the time... and it hurts. why dont i ever get one god? if i could binge i would do ice cream. and those chocolate eggs. and eat into oblivion and forget about the fact that my dad is now a present asshole, that the boy i like as usual doesnt like me, that crista talked shit about me, and that i dont know what to do about kurtis. eff.) (*yikes. i totally binged. gross. i just need to get back in the good cycle . then i ll be fine. but the time until then is hell)