• I can't sleep

without you breathing next to me

• I can't help i

search for your silhouette in each moonlight

• I can't speak

you're not looking i'm gone in front of you

-What if this is all just insecurity and protocol -don't worry i hate myself more than you ever have/could before

• "You better start swimming" he said

but i'm already looking up at water overhead

• I always wonder exactly how you drown

but as I am terrified, I don't flail around I'm ready for my depth profound

• ..this is all. just watching and not changing our fouls
• And what if I killed myself and then you would see

but then it wouldn't matter to me

• but just sitting here with you not getting the point

and me not willing to waste it on a sad disappointment

• And maybe if I could sleep...

I wouldn't dwell upon these things... and maybe if I could fall... I wouldn't wonder how far...

• If I wasn't so all or nothing maybe I could get some normalcy

but it'd be mediacore like the girl you think makes you happy