This is how we're going to solve this:

• Quit smoking/Get in shape
  • I like breathing. Plus, exercising is a NATURAL release of endorphins. The easiest way to make me feel better and feel good about myself. So get the fuck over the laziness.
• Swallow the pride and start swallowing the anti-depressants too
  • It's been a year. It's not better. The lows interfere with my life and I have to do something about it. A real solution. And when I register for school I will start going to counseling (if it's free here too.)
• Do something.
  • I waste so much time. So much. Paint, write, walk, I don't give a shit. But I can't sit here and feel sorry for myself anymore.
• Fuck crying.
  • It hasn't helped so far. There's better uses of time
• On friends
  • Stop being around people I can't stand. Keep the ones I can and add to that group. Go meet people. They're not going to knock on the door of my room while I'm just sitting here.
• Read again
  • It used to make me happy. I used to love learning anything. I used to be curious and exciting... not a miserable drone like everyone else. "Who would wanna be.. Who would wanna be... such an asshole?" (Modest Mouse)
• Most importantly: STOP NOT CARING
  • Not everything wrong, but enough of it is because I just don't care. I didn't care about school, people, what I looked or anything except being happy again. I won't be until I care.