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playing.

  • final fantasy vii: rebirth62 hrs
    • status: chapter ten
  • baldur's gate 3104 hrsact iii
    • started: december 29, '23
    • first playthrough, wood elf cleric of light
    • active party: shadowheart, lae'zel, ♡ gale
    • camp: karlach, astarion, wyll, scratch, owlbear cub, withers, jaheira, isobel, nightsong
jan 3 2023 ∞
apr 5 2024 +
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april.

    • 03  back porch reading when the sun decides to rest, cool breeze kisses, hair still wet from a shower.
    • 01  reminder to be gentle with myself when mindful habits don't always stick as we'd like them to, or when two months pass as if a breath.

february.

    • 01   i am trying to relearn patience and kindness with moving my body — in ways that feel good for it, nourishing it rather than disciplining it. rather than setting strict guidelines or holding myself to a number or idea, i'm hoping only for this: that i develop a practice, a habit of movement; ridding of the regret, then, of staying too still.
jan 1 2024 ∞
apr 18 2024 +
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application order reminder ! ˎˊ-

morning & evening.

  • youth to the peoplesuperfood cleanser
  • lushtea tree toner water
  • glow recipeplum plump hyaluronic moisturizer
  • youth to the peoplesuperberry hydrate + glow dream oil

twice a week.

  • youth to the peopleyerba mate resurfacing facial
  • farmacyhoney potion plus hydration mask or
  • caudalievinergetic c+ detox mask

break.

  • glow recipewatermelon glow dew drops serum
  • olehenriksenbanana bright vitamin c eye cream
oct 15 2023 ∞
jan 28 2024 +
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☆ favored ┊ ✧ documentary ┊ ☽ foreign ┊ ◍ anime

currently watching.

  • spy x family: season one (ep. 1-3) ↺ ◍
  • wandavision: season one (ep. 1-2)
  • moon knight: season one (ep. 1-4)
  • trigun stampede: season one (ep. 1-7)
  • unlocked: season one (ep. 1-4)
  • 3 body problem: season one (ep. 1)
  • jujutsu kaisen: season two (ep. 1-14)
  • the boys: season three (ep. 1-6)

completed.

  • ☑ the boys: season one
  • ☑ the boys: season two
  • ☑ american nightmare ✧
  • ☑ jujutsu kaisen: season one ↺ ◍
  • ☑ chainsaw man: season one
  • ☑ love is blind: season six
  • ☑ the gentlemen: season one
  • ☑ the outreau case ✧ ☽
jan 1 2024 ∞
jun 4 2024 +
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goal: 28/30 — ☆ favored ┊ ☄ cinema ┊ ☽ foreign

june.

  • dream scenario (2023)

may.

  • bones and all (2022) ☆
  • saltburn (2023) ☆ ↺
  • godzilla x kong (2024) ☄
  • tar (2022)

april.

  • the power of the dog (2021)
  • talk to me (2023) ☆
  • the humans (2021)
  • the zone of interest (2023)
  • moonlight (2016)
  • civil war (2024) ☄
  • lord of misrule (2023)
  • in secret (2013)
  • cropsey (2014)
jan 1 2024 ∞
jun 12 2024 +
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goal: 4/30

  • morbid523: the dark secrets of the wizard of oz
  • mrballen podcast ┊ the final descent vol. iii
  • mrballen podcast ┊ hell, alaska
  • mrballen podcast ┊ these people actually exist
jan 1 2024 ∞
jan 28 2024 +
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☽ full moon ┊ 🐾 aiko ┊ ✧ gaming ┊ ☄ movie

april.

  • 11 ┊ civil war ☄
  • 23 ┊ pink moon 7:49 p ☽
  • 26 ┊ stellar blade ✧

may.

  • 23 ┊ flower moon 9:53 a ☽
  • 24 ┊ furiosa ☄

june.

  • 15 ┊ bubba's birthday
  • 24 ┊ 32nd birthday !
  • 21 ┊ strawberry moon 9:08 p ☽
  • 26 ┊ chuck's birthday
  • 28 ┊ a quiet place day one ☄
apr 5 2024 ∞
jun 7 2024 +

currently reading.

  • chainsaw man by tatsuki fujimoto
    • ▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▮▯▯▯▯▯▯▯▯▯▯ (84/164)
  • jujutsu kaisen by gege akutami
    • ▮▮▮▮▮▮▯▯▯▯▯▯▯▯▯▯▯▯▯▯ (82/259)
may 2 2024 ∞
jun 12 2024 +
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goal: /6

i have been so estranged with this piece of myself, a devourer of words and prose, for the last few years. so we're starting off with a gentle goal for 2024 to ease back into enjoying reading the way i once did.

currently reading.

  • a lover's discourse by roland barthes
    • ✦✦✦✦✧✧✧✧✧✧ (92/234)
  • to the lighthouse by virginia woolf
    • ✦✧✧✧✧✧✧✧✧✧ (24/224)
  • traces of two pasts by kazushige nojima
    • ✦✦✧✧✧✧✧✧✧✧ (89/384)
jan 1 2024 ∞
feb 16 2024 +
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a collection of words, snippets, and quotes that sunk their teeth into me, for safekeeping.

a lover's discourseroland barthes

  • someone tells me: this kind of love is not viable. but how can you evaluate viability? why is the viable a good thing? why is it better to last than to burn?
  • "joy has no need of heirs or of children—joy wants itself, wants eternity, the repetition of the same things, wants everything to remain eternally the same." the fulfilled lover has no need to write, to transmit, to reproduce.
  • ("my soul is not only filled, but runs over.") i fulfill (i am fulfilled), i accumulate, but i do not abide by the level of lack; i produce an excess, and it is in this excess that the fulfillment occurs (the excessive is the realm, the system of the image-repertoire: once i am no longe...
jan 1 2024 ∞
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