— playing.

• final fantasy vii: rebirth ┊ 62 hrs
  • status: chapter ten
• baldur's gate 3 ┊ 104 hrs — act iii
  • started: december 29, '23
  • first playthrough, wood elf cleric of light
  • active party: shadowheart, lae'zel, ♡ gale
  • camp: karlach, astarion, wyll, scratch, owlbear cub, withers, jaheira, isobel, nightsong

— april.

• 03  back porch reading when the sun decides to rest, cool breeze kisses, hair still wet from a shower.
• 01  reminder to be gentle with myself when mindful habits don't always stick as we'd like them to, or when two months pass as if a breath.

— february.

• 01   i am trying to relearn patience and kindness with moving my body — in ways that feel good for it, nourishing it rather than disciplining it. rather than setting strict guidelines or holding myself to a number or idea, i'm hoping only for this: that i develop a practice, a habit of movement; ridding of the regret, then, of staying too still.

application order reminder ! ˎˊ-

— morning & evening.

• youth to the people ┊ superfood cleanser
• lush ┊ tea tree toner water
• glow recipe ┊ plum plump hyaluronic moisturizer
• youth to the people ┊ superberry hydrate + glow dream oil

— twice a week.

• youth to the people ┊ yerba mate resurfacing facial ☆
• farmacy ┊ honey potion plus hydration mask or
• caudalie ┊ vinergetic c+ detox mask

— break.

• glow recipe ┊ watermelon glow dew drops serum
• olehenriksen ┊ banana bright vitamin c eye cream

☆ favored ┊ ✧ documentary ┊ ☽ foreign ┊ ◍ anime

— currently watching.

• trigun stampede: season one (ep. 1-7) ◍
• unlocked: season one (ep. 1-4) ✧
• fallout: season one (ep. 1)
• 3 body problem: season one (ep. 1)
• jujutsu kaisen: season two (ep. 1-5) ◍
• the boys: season three (ep. 1-6)

— completed.

• ☑ the boys: season one
• ☑ the boys: season two
• ☑ american nightmare ✧
• ☑ jujutsu kaisen: season one ↺ ◍
• ☑ chainsaw man: season one ◍
• ☑ love is blind: season six
• ☑ the gentlemen: season one ☆
• ☑ the outreau case ✧ ☽
• ☑ the bachelor: season twenty-eight
• ☑ homicide new york ✧

goal: 22/30 — ☆ favored ┊ ☄ cinema ┊ ☽ foreign

— april.

• the power of the dog (2021)
• talk to me (2023) ☆
• the humans (2021)
• the zone of interest (2023)
• moonlight (2016)
• civil war (2024) ☄
• lord of misrule (2023)
• in secret (2013)

— march.

• dune 2 (2024) ☄ ☆
• nightmare alley (2021)

— february.

• nyad (2023)
• jujutsu kaisen 0 (2022)
• scare me (2020)
• anatomy of a fall (2023)

goal: /6

i have been so estranged with this piece of myself, a devourer of words and prose, for the last few years. so we're starting off with a gentle goal for 2024 to ease back into enjoying reading the way i once did.

— currently reading.

• a lover's discourse by roland barthes
  • ✦✦✦✦✧✧✧✧✧✧ (92/234)
• to the lighthouse by virginia woolf
  • ✦✧✧✧✧✧✧✧✧✧ (24/224)
• traces of two pasts by kazushige nojima
  • ✦✦✧✧✧✧✧✧✧✧ (89/384)

☽ full moon ┊ 🐾 aiko ┊ ✧ gaming ┊ ☄ movie

— april.

• 11 ┊ civil war ☄
• 23 ┊ pink moon 7:49 p ☽
• 26 ┊ stellar blade ✧

— may.

• 23 ┊ flower moon 9:53 a ☽
• 24 ┊ furiosa ☄

— june.

• 15 ┊ bubba's birthday
• 24 ┊ 32nd birthday !
• 21 ┊ strawberry moon 9:08 p ☽
• 26 ┊ chuck's birthday
• 28 ┊ the quiet place day one ☄

goal: 4/30

• morbid ┊ 523: the dark secrets of the wizard of oz
• mrballen podcast ┊ the final descent vol. iii
• mrballen podcast ┊ hell, alaska
• mrballen podcast ┊ these people actually exist

a collection of words, snippets, and quotes that sunk their teeth into me, for safekeeping.

a lover's discourse — roland barthes

• someone tells me: this kind of love is not viable. but how can you evaluate viability? why is the viable a good thing? why is it better to last than to burn?
• "joy has no need of heirs or of children—joy wants itself, wants eternity, the repetition of the same things, wants everything to remain eternally the same." the fulfilled lover has no need to write, to transmit, to reproduce.
• ("my soul is not only filled, but runs over.") i fulfill (i am fulfilled), i accumulate, but i do not abide by the level of lack; i produce an excess, and it is in this excess that the fulfillment occurs (the excessive is the realm, the system of the image-repertoire: once i am no longe...