TW (obviously)

childhood

• watching people die in front of me
• physical abuse
• verbal abuse
• emotional negligence/stonewalling
• sexual battery
• internalized classism/growing up poor relative to my classmates

mental illness

• homicidal intrusive thoughts
• depressions
• sewerslidel episodes
• hallucinations/psychosis

^ the combined risk taking impulsivity and fear of abandonment is kind of making me think it's bpd bc it encompasses everything

adolescence

• sexual assault
• bullying (slut shaming and stonewalling again)
• athletic body tracking/fat shaming
• dysmorphia
• dysphoria
• ED (bulimia)
• abandonment
• rape
• working with/in proximity to militant right wing white supremacists
• transphobia/homophobia