My mom is nice sometimes.. but she is very scary. She gets mad very easy, and yells at me for things I don't mean. It hurts to hear her say such awful things.. she says awful things about herself too. I'm scared that one day she'll kill herself and leave me all alone.. I'm worried that her threats of suicide won't just be threats. She doesn't physically hurt me often. Only every once in a while wll she do it. She usually hits my arms and pulls my hair. I can tell she's very sad, so it's ok. She's been through a lot and I have too. I'm scared of mom.. really scared.. but I never tell her. I want to live in a castle with big brother Leonid and Lottie and all my friends where I won't have to be scared.. I feel like I have no right to be sad over this and its all just nothing nothing nothing. I want a peaceful life where I'm not homeless and my mama isn't broken and I'm not a pathetic child and life is wonderful and everything is alright