- Not having the energy to do anything
- Feeling good in the mornings, being able to walk to the bus
- Worrying that if I had to stand on the bus on the way to school, I would pass out. Negotiating with myself that if the bus looked crowded when it got here, I would wait for the next one and be late for class.
- Not having an appetite. Holding my breath when opening the fridge door because the smells made me sick.
- Having persistent lows all the time, to the point that it would take upwards of 60 grams to correct a single one.
- Having tan skin, even in the middle of winter or early Spring, even when I never went outside for very long
- People thinking it was related to mental health or anxiety
- Feeling depressed because I thought this would be my life from now on and I would never have much energy
- Before getting up to walk anywhere I had to know where the next place was that I was going to sit
- When I went to the grocery store, I would pretend to look at things on the bottom shelf when really I just wanted to sit down for a minute
- The breath-sucking feeling when I forced myself to stand too long
- Being able to eat an endless amount of pickles and still always craving more sodium
- Having to sit on the floor of the bathtub during showers because I couldn't stand that long and the steam made it worse
- Losing a lot of weight from not eating
- Having a perpetual tangle in the back of my hair and only realizing after I was diagnosed and it went away that it was because I was always laying down
- Not getting my period for two months in a row
- Not having to shave my legs because my hair stopped growing
- Getting lightheaded and dizzy whenever I stood up
- Waking up one day a few weeks before Christmas to a bunch of EMTs crowded into my room around my bed and an IV in my arm because my blood sugar had been so low for so long while I was asleep and my mom said my words were mixed up and I was yelling at the EMTs
- Throwing up strawberries outside of urgent care the first time I had to go into the hospital
- Getting an IV and being cold because of it
- One of the nurses guessing that I had a heart disorder to another nurse in the room
- Being transferred to the hospital because urgent care was closing and the EMTs seemed young and one of them was nice but said psychology seemed like common sense and the other was cute and was singing along to the radio while he was driving and he got me another blanket after they dropped me off at the hospital before they left
aug 16 2020 ∞
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