- hide it hide it hide it hide it hide it hide it hide it hide hide hide hide it. give up give up give up give up.
- nobody wants you, you are weak. your life will be short, you will never find happiness. let them all go, they don't want you. sew heart and breath shut forever. leave them alone, please.
- distance myself so everyone will forget. limit to bread and water. drink less water. dehydrate. dehydrate even more. drink. fall asleep. happiness.
- no convincing, no talking, no opening, no entrances. turn off, hide, close, bury. give jemma all my passwords, delete accounts, delete, delete, delete. reset phone and laptop brand new. blank slate everything.
- if this hurts, living hurts more. it hurts so, so, so, so, so, so so so so so much more. because you are unwanted. you've always been this way. get raped, be abused, get hurt, be misunderstood, get yelled at, be ignored, got what you deserve. crawl, cry, shake, be pitiful, there isn't anybody there so don't open it.
- there's no equation for this. please stop trying. there's nothing on the whiteboard, stop smiling. you look pathetic. there's no words in this note, they don't come through monster. lower your head and never look up.
- i hate myself. i'm a monster, i'm not human. i'm not human. i'm not human. she's not human. i don't want love or connection or hope or attention or friends or contact or bonds, why, why, why do i want that?
- you're a monster. you're dramatic. you will die soon. get away from them.
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