• (101024) i'm still trying to get it all down, it's a sickly sweet feeling knowing that you're as lost as i am but it stings to know im hurting you. how exactly am i supposed to live with myself knowing that i have made you scared and upset? how do people do this so often; how did you treat me like this without feeling horrible?? but trying to hold you up like this is killing me. i love you, im sorry, i dont know what else i can do

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• (101124) i hate this feeling, it's like filling my heart with sand. god, i love you so much. it hurts how much i love you. i know you dont really care about me unless im getting you off, i know you'd rather me take over everything for you. i still love you, and i always will

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• (101724) part of me debates putting the link to this on my social media, knowing that you'd see it eventually. i am constantly torn between my love for you and my respect for myself and my time, and there is no clear winner.

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