1/1

• sitting in dark rooms with boys

1/2

• learn
• love
• move on

1/4

• dry lips
• blue lungs
• hold hands to keep your fingers warm

1/5

• call me pretty
• call me baby

1/6

• wading through the muck that is the inside of my mind

1/7

• feel something genuine

1/9

• warm breath on my cheek
• the sound of you snoring
• puts me right to sleep

1/10

• the stillness of
• light through windows

1/11

• sensations on your skin
• like waves of euphoria

1/12

• "tenderest of tendrils"

1/13

• WIDE AWAKE AT NIGHT
• with your thoughts
• and anxious speculations

1/14

• pretty piano music
• in a sunlit room

1/15

• can't sleep until I've showered
• my bed is a sacred place
• infused with the remnants
• of your warmth and presence

1/16

• SADNESS IS MY BOYFRIEND
• OH SADNESS
• I'M YOUR GIRL

1/17

• old pink bathrooms
• in old colonial houses

1/18

• dead confetti
• like eviscerated organs

1/19

• no space I would rather occupy
• than the space between your arms
• with your fingers in my hair
• with the warmth of your blood
• against my face
• with your heart pulsing
• into my brain

1/20

• the troublemaker
• and his willing accomplice

1/21

• stay stay stay

1/22

• breathing, feeling creature

1/23

• these private moments
• of insanity

1/24

• hardcore into you

1/28

• EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY

1/29

• fuck that shit you're better than that

1/30

• it's cold
• and I can't go to sleep
• because you're not here
• even with a thermal blanket
• wrapped snugly around my neck
• my back and shoulders still feel exposed
• when i exhale
• the air from my lungs comes out
• in wisps of white that spell your name in cursive
• I can think it away like
• I can think away the feeling of dehydration
• there is only one way to placate
• a screaming body
• that wants you to know
• when it is being deprived of something that it needs