la douleur exquise: the heart-wrenching pain of wanting someone you can't have.

l’appel du vide: refers to all of those indescribable instinctive urges to do something unimaginable that appear almost out of nowhere.

jolie laide: the uniqueness of someone's beauty, something atypical that challenges or isn't aligned with conventional beauty standards

strangers that inspire me and relate through their lists

• ivyink
• tay

reading

• universal love by alexander weinstein | 2020
• i ate the whole world to find you by rachel ang | 2025
• the serviceberry: abundance and reciprocity in the natural world by robin wall kimmerer | 2024

read

• the final girl support club by grady hendrix | 2021
• the bell jar by sylvia plath | 1963
• so thrilled for you by holly bourne | 2025
• open wide by jessica gross | 2025
• just like home by sarah gailey | 2022
• listen for the lie by amy tintera | 2024

• fragonard emilie
• fragonard lilas
• fragonard belle de paris
• gucci flora gorgeous jasmine
• miss dior blooming bouquet
• chloé

"For people could close their eyes to greatness, to horrors, to beauty, and their ears to melodies or deceiving words. But they couldn't escape scent. For scent was a brother of breath. Together with breath, it entered human beings, who couldn't defend themselves against it, not if they wanted to live. And scent entered into their very core, went directly to their hearts, and decided for good and all between affection and contempt, disgust and lust, love and hate. He who ruled scent ruled the hearts of men.” ― Patrick Süskind, Perfume: The Story of a Murderer.

the easy and good life with you

• turning silly sayings into "our thing"
• the smell of his head
• the way he holds a book while reading
• his hands, always
• when he suddenly looks at me, smiles and winks
• telling me he loves me out of the blue
• cuddling me to sleep every night
• little dessert surprises ever so often
• how he plays with his ring like a fidget toy
• always spoiling me with little gifts
• 'goodnight sweetheart'
• tucking me in when i go for a nap
• when he settles down on the sofa with his head on my lap
• his little dimples that only appear once in a while when he shaves

belgium

• brussels (current home)
• antwerp
• gent
• brugge
• louvain
• louvain la-neuve
• mons
• dinant
• some small villages in the ardennes
• kortrijk

netherlands

• amsterdam
• the hague
• delft

portugal

• lisbon

france

amanda ┊ 1990 ┊ libra ┊br-be

photos ┊movies ┊books ┊postcards ┊pins ┊games

"Não há guarda-chuva contra o tempo,rio fluindo sob a casa, correnteza carregando os dias, os cabelos." João Cabral de Melo Neto

rewatches ┊ ♡ favorites ┊ ✧ with m. | † horror

september

• the hangover part ii | 2011 ✧
• the hangover | 2009 ✧
• the whisper man | 2026 † ✧

august

• they will kill you | 2026 †
• rose of nevada | 2025 ✧
• alien: romulus | 2024 †
• the last house | 2026 † ✧
• spider-man: across the spider-verse | 2023 ✧ ♡

july

• talk to me | 2022 † ✧
• disclosure day | 2026 ✧ - cinema
• is this thing on? | 2025 ✧
• saccharine | 2026 † ✧
• girl interrupted | 1999 ✧ ♡

JUST F ING DO IT!

body & mind

• focus more on self-care
• be consistent with my skin-care
• try to start yoga or pilates
• sensory chamber and spa

learning

• start french classes
• tap dancing

hobbies

• improve my knitting skills
• start embroidery and cross stitch
• get back at doing collages
• scrapbooking for memory keepsake
• journaling and diary
• finally start the photo blog
• get back to playing AC until I designed the island of my dreams

literary

random names i go by

• amy
• monday
• amanda cassidy
• amanda darling dear
• zelda zonk
• esther greenwood
• mariann twinette
• amanita phalloids

♥ favorites ┊✧ with m. ┊ last season ┊ rewatch

watching

• the creep tapes | season 1 | 2024 | ✧

watched

• spider-noir | season 1 | 2026 ✧
• community | season 1 | 2009 ✧ ♥
• love is blind uk | season 3 | 2026
• the bear | season 5 | 2026 ✧ ♥
• bodkin | season 1 | 2024 ✧
• emergência radioativa | limited series | 2026 ✧
• from | season 4 | 2025 ✧
• bait | limited series | 2026 ✧
• rupaul's drag race all stars | season 11 | 2026 - didn't finish.
• the boys | season 5 | 2026 ✧
• widow's bay | season 1 | 2026 ✧ ♥
• the four seasons | season 2 | 2026 ✧ ♥
• the terror: devil in silver | season 3 | 2026 ✧
• murder mindfully | season 2 | 2026 ✧
• vladimir | season 1 | 2026 ♥
• ghosts | season 5 | 2025-2026 ✧ ♥

"If I read a book and it makes my whole body so cold no fire can warm me, I know that is poetry. If I feel physically as if the top of my head were taken off, I know that is poetry. These are the only ways I know it. Is there any other way?" ― Emily Dickinson

• How To Drink Water When There Is Wine by Barbara Kingsolver ♡
• Trust by Margaret Noodin ♡
• Yes, That's When by Rosemerry Wahtola Trommer ♡
• Hard Love Rock by Audre Lorde ♡
• Fragments #26 by Trista Mateer ♡
• The Nuisance by Marge Piercy ♡
• To the Bone by Dorothy Allison ♡
• Dear — by Donika Kelly ♡
• When I'm away from you, I feel like the second-place winner in a bee-wearing contest by Aimee Nezhukumatathil ♡
• Mountain dew commercial disguised as a love poem by Matthew Olzmann ♡
• Object Permanence by Natalie Sealey ♡

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riding the ebb and flow of the crowd.

• stars + broken social scene + metric | 16.09 | de roma, antwerp ♥
  • stars
    • i never ever dreamed of seeing this band live. have been listening to their albums since i discovered them through grey's anatomy episode, "elevator love letter" . they played it, i sang along screaming my heart out. it was magical.
    • torquil is the funniest, sweetest guy on stage. amy is just ethereal.
    • "i hope you believe in ghosts, because there's one on your shoulder" - procede to play dead hearts are everywhere
    • i got the pink special valentine's day vinyl edition of heart
  • bss
    • the comings and goings from all the musicians from the other bands playing togethe...

• the floating sensation when the diazepam hits. the calmness, peace of mind, happy thoughts and overall sense I can accomplish anything. of course the downside is that it fades quickly and then i just get sluggish and sleepy.