some sad blog

23.01.25

• how is january almost over already? i'm glad anyway. it is a dreadful month and this was particularly awful. the weather doesn't help. the constant sickness either.
• neglecting work as much as i can.
• taking valium too often to numb it all, to pace my heart rate. i know it works when i can't remember proper words.
• so much i want to do. so much needs to be done.
• i need to cleanse this house. feeling like everything started to derrail since we moved.
• maybe the color of the walls. maybe the mess. maybe the despair of realizing i have so little time to try and make it a proper home.

20.01.2025

• chasing the boogeyman, richard chizmar
• the locked door, freida mcfadden
• where the wild things are (english & french), maurice sendak
• oddfellow's orphanage, emily winfield
• snow & rose, emily winfield
• lapvona, moshfegh ottessa
• motherthing, ainslie horgarth
• at night all blood is black, davio diop
• medical anomalies, kale james
• ballet shoes, noel streatfeild
• poison: the history of potions, powders and murderous practitioners, ben hubbard
• poems of the dead and undead, tony barnstone
• poems bewitched and haunted, john hollander
• let the right one in , john ajvide lindqvist

to be continued

• white boot
• black mini cabaia backpack ✓
• new straight jeans
• miss dior rose n'roses
• ukulele
• instax printer
• sylvanian families -list
• books list(list)
• new blythe eyechips
• storage for blythe clothes ✓

for the house

• new desk
• new chair
• trolley
• display cabinet for dolls ❖
• pink throw (❖) ✓
• beddings (❖) ✓ ❖
• new duvet ✓
• new dish set ✓
• new coffee mugs ✓

rewatches ┊ ♡ favorites ┊ ✧ with m. | † horror

f e b.

• caddo lake | 2024 ✧ ♡

j a n.

• red rooms | 2024 ✧ † ♡
• small things like these | 2024 ✧
• a different man | 2024 ✧
• herectic | 2024 ✧ †
• juror #2 | 2024 ✧

comes january we're frozen inside, making new resolutions a hundredth time

body & mind

• focus more on self-care
• be consistent with my skin-care
• try to start yoga or pilates
• sensory chamber and spa

learning

• start french classes
• tap dancing

hobbies

• improve my knitting skills
• start embroidery and cross stitch
• get back at doing collages
• scrapbooking for memory keepsake
• journaling and diary
• finally start the photo blog
• get back to playing AC until I designed the island of my dreams

amanda ┊ 1990 ┊ libra ┊ brazilian living in belgium

photos ┊movies ┊books ┊postcards ┊pins ┊games

"Não há guarda-chuva contra o tempo,rio fluindo sob a casa, correnteza carregando os dias, os cabelos." João Cabral de Melo Neto

the easy and good life with you

• turning silly sayings into "our thing"
• the smell of his head
• the way he holds a book while reading
• his hands, always
• when he suddenly looks at me, smiles and winks
• telling me he loves me out of the blue
• cuddling me to sleep every night
• little dessert surprises ever so often
• how he plays with his ring like a fidget toy
• always spoiling me with little gifts
• 'goodnight sweetheart'

available on: ❖ steam┊ ✿ switch ┊ ■ xbox

• ooblets ✿ ■ ❖
• bear and breakfast ✿ ❖
• league of enthusiastic losers ✿ ■ ❖
• blanc ✿ ❖
• bayonetta origins: cereza and the lost demon ✿
• harmony: the fall of reverie ✿ ■ ❖
• fashion dreamer ✿
• a little to the left ✿ ■ ❖
• cult of the lamb ✿ ■ ❖
• behind the frame ✿ ❖

♥ favorites ┊✧ with m. ┊ last season

watching

• rupaul's drag race | season 17 | 2025
• the are murders | season 1 | 2025 ✧
• love is blind | season 8 | 2025
• from | season 2 | 2023 ✧
• grey's anatomy | season 21 | 2024-2025 hiatus

watched

• apple cider vinegar | limited series | 2025 ✧
• what we do in the shadows | season 6 | 2024 ✧♥♥♥ - i will miss it so
• the night agent | season 2 | 2025
• outlander | season 7 | 2024-2025
• the kings of tupelo | documentary series | 2024 ✧♥
• based on a true story | season 2 | 2024 ✧
• based on a true story | season 1 | 2023 ✧
• a man on the inside | season 1 | 2024 ✧

belgium

• brussels (current home)
• antwerp
• gent
• brugge
• louvain
• louvain la-neuve
• mons
• dinant
• some small villages in the ardennes

netherlands

• amsterdam
• the hague
• delft

portugal

• lisbon

france

• paris

physical books owned

• a little princes, frances hodgson burnett , 1905 | children classics
• charlotte's web, e.b. white , 1952 | children classics
• crying in h mart, michelle zauner , 2021 | memoir
• i want to die but i want to eat tteokpokki, baek se-hee , 2018 | memoir
• living sea of waking dreams, richard flanagan , 2020 | fiction
• poor things, alasdair gray , 1992 | fiction
• the bell jar, sylvia plath , 1963 | fiction
• the mushroom at the end of the world, anna tsing , 2015 | nonfiction
• the shock doctrine, naomi klein , 2007 | nonfiction
• the travelling cat chronicles, hiro arikawa , 2012 | fiction
• the wind in the willow, keneth grahame , 1908 | children classics