I moved away and the man I loved was too depressed to continue a long distance relationship. I honestly don't feel like I can get past this. I know I will one day, but not soon. This is what I know.

  • Heartache actually exists. And it's awful.
  • No serious decision can be made after trying something for only three weeks. People go to camp longer than that.
  • Love at first sight does not exist. It's in your head.
  • I am very fragile.
  • I base my happiness on other people. I'm sorry.
  • Being a realistic dreamer is painful.
  • Crushing on celebrities is one of the most sane things a person can do. You don't have any REAL expectations.
  • I would erase something that is true from here because you asked me to.
oct 22 2006 ∞
dec 7 2006 +
  • Get more edu-mi-cation
  • Lose 35-40 lbs.
  • Save money to move back to Cali
  • Learn to be an adult (sometimes)
  • Play games
  • Read...knowledge=power
  • Write, write, write
  • Try new food
  • Write letters and cards
  • Be more fun
  • Get past depression and anxiety
  • Be healthy and happy
oct 10 2006 ∞
oct 26 2006 +
  • Larisa Oleynik
  • Tori Spelling
  • Charlize Theron
  • Drew Barrymore
  • Judy Garland
oct 23 2006 ∞
oct 24 2006 +
  • Lifescapes: Best of Meditation
  • Lifescapes: Cardio
  • Lifescapes: Pachelbel
  • Lift: One Hundred Hours
  • The Like: Are You Thinking What I'm Thinking?
  • Lisa Loeb: Firecracker
  • Liza Minnelli: Back...
  • The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
  • The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
  • LunyTunes: Reggaeton Hits
  • Mamma Mia!
  • Mandy Moore
  • Mariah Cary: Daydreams
  • Marilyn Manson: The Golden Age of Grotesque
  • Masterminds
  • Matchbox 20: Yourself of Someone Like You
  • Matt Costa: Songs We Sing
oct 21 2006 ∞
oct 24 2006 +
  • New York City, New York
  • Huntington Beach, CA
  • Fullerton, CA
  • Hollywood, CA
  • Jackson Hole, WY
  • Yosemite, CA
oct 21 2006 ∞
oct 24 2006 +
  • To develop my own artistic abilities
  • To cook more than bread and desserts
  • To bartend my friends
  • TO DANCE
  • To play violin, guitar, and piano
  • To speak effectively and eloquently
  • To debate and not get tongue-tied
  • To look people in the eyes
  • Cute phrases that are decidedly me
  • To be more polite and friendly
  • To sew
  • To speak other languages (Spanish, French, Greek, Italian, Dutch)
  • To not expect so much
  • To be more organized and clean
  • To put myself up
  • Not to procrastinate
  • To be positive and outgoing
oct 10 2006 ∞
oct 10 2006 +

I love celebrity crushes. They are a dream.

  • David Bowie (The one and only)
  • Anthony Perkins (Norman Bates in Psycho 1960)
  • Darren Hayes (lead singer of Savage Garden)
  • Michael Rosenbaum (Lex in Smallville)
  • Donald O'Connor (Cosmo in Singing in the Rain)
  • Matt Costa (yup!)
  • Luke Skywalker (Yes, the character)
  • Trent Lane (on Daria)
  • Liev Schreiber (Amazing actor---Ransom, Scream...)
  • Scott Cohen (The original Wolfie from 10th Kingdom)
  • Elijah Wood (my first crush)
  • Gary Cooper (The Westerner!)
  • Steve Buscemi (The essence of Sexy-Ugly)
  • Tim Curry (I love the cross-dresser, what...
oct 22 2006 ∞
nov 5 2006 +
  • Bowie
  • Hunter
  • Landon
  • Damien
  • Roscoe
  • Walter
  • Gilbert
  • Carson
  • Jackson
oct 24 2006 ∞
oct 24 2006 +
  • 2gether
  • 7BALL Gas Collection 16
  • 7BALL Gas Collection 19
  • 10 Things I Hate About You
  • '80's New Wave Party
  • A Walk to Remember
  • All Saints
  • Almost Famous
  • Amelie
  • Anna Nalick: Wreck of the Day
  • Audio Adrenaline: Zombie
  • Beach Boys: Greatest Hits
  • Billy Idol: Greatest Hits
  • Bing Crosby: Best of
  • Bing Crosby: Cocktail Hour
  • Bing Crosby: White Christmas
  • The Black Eyed Peas: Monkey Business
  • Blink182: Enema of the State
  • Blondie/Pat Benatar: Back to Back Hits
  • The Breakfast Club
  • Britney Spears: ...Baby One More Time
oct 21 2006 ∞
oct 24 2006 +
  • Pretty in Pink
  • The Princess Diaries
  • Psycho
  • RENT
  • RKO 281
  • The Rocky Horror Picture Show
  • Rooney Collection
  • The Sandlot
  • School of Rock
  • Seven Brides for Seven Brothers
  • Signs
  • Sin City
  • Singing in the Rain
  • Sixteen Candles
  • SLC PUNK
  • Smokey Joe's Cafe
  • Sunset Boulevard
  • The Temptations
  • The Terminal
  • 'Til the Clouds Roll By
  • Titanis
oct 21 2006 ∞
oct 24 2006 +
  • Learn to walk in heels
  • Experiment with makeup (I wanna look like a pin-up)
  • Whiten teeth
  • "Always exercise and never pluck your eyebrows to thin"
  • Nail expert
  • Nice skin would be nice!
  • Posture=confidence
  • Hair is fun to play with...
  • "Fashion, turn to the right, fashion, turn to the left"---get my own
oct 10 2006 ∞
oct 10 2006 +

This is what I know from the top of my head...will update as it comes to me. These songs make me feel sexy and frisky.

  • Dreaming of You-The Coral
  • Cracked Actor-David Bowie
  • A Girl Like You-Edwyn Collins
  • The Pink Panther Theme Song
  • Dirrty-Christina Aguilera
  • Crazy On You-Heart
  • I Want to be Evil-Eartha Kitt
nov 5 2006 ∞
nov 9 2006 +
  • Manhattan (Lynn)
  • Sutton
  • Brooklyn
  • Mae
  • Kaelyn
  • Ainslee
  • Maya
  • Shanna
  • Anne
  • Esther
  • Egypt
  • Lorelei
oct 24 2006 ∞
oct 25 2006 +
  • Greek (1/8!)
  • Irish
  • Scottish
  • Welsh
  • Spanish
  • Cherokee
  • Yaqui
  • Blackfoot
  • English
  • German
  • And more that I can't think of
oct 23 2006 ∞
oct 24 2006 +
  • The 10th Kingdom
  • 2LDK
  • 10 Things I Hate About You
  • 40 Year Old Virgin
  • 42nd Street
  • 50 First Dates
  • 100 Girls
  • A Mighty Wind
  • A Time for Dancing
  • A Walk to Remember
  • Absolute Beginners
  • Airheads
  • All Over Me
  • Almost Famous
  • American Rhapsody
  • Anne of Green Gables
  • Anne of Green Gables: The Sequel
  • Annie
  • Battle Royale
  • Betty Boop
  • Beyond Borders
oct 21 2006 ∞
oct 24 2006 +
  • My family
  • My friends
  • New York
  • Music
  • Movie knowledge
  • Beauty (in everything)
  • Bettering myself
  • Dreaming
  • Loving others
  • Anti-racism
  • Being a Republican
  • Nature
  • Places
  • Musicals
  • Theatre
  • Vintage-ness
  • Travel
  • Humpback Whales
  • Saxaphones
  • Rain
  • History
oct 21 2006 ∞
oct 24 2006 +