The last few days have been weighing on my mind. I really regret doing this last wedding because I feel that I did not do a good enough job. Mostly because I did not push enough to get the bride and groom to the golf course for the intimate portraits. I really regret that, and I hate to even dwell on a regret, however since this customer was paying me, i did not think that i would not have time. I mean, I gained a lot from this experience, i noticed things i improved on, but that led to me noticing a million other things that still need so much work. Lord, I just pray that they love the pictures i was able to give them.

Show me Lord, how I can most bless my clients and their families. I know that test shooting the locations and planning the shots are musts, but also being more straightforward, communicating with the bride on colors, and getting a better idea of the timeline.

I feel better about my work ethic, but you know Lord how hard it was for me to photograph the bride and groom when the family and friends kept walking up to them and talking to them. I need to have a better plan, like running off with the bride and groom to a separate location. And honestly, I was planning to. I'm not sure what happened.

I feel so insignificant Lord, but I know you protect me with your right hand. I wait on you Lord, you know everything, and you knew how this wedding would turn out. You knew where I would succeed, and where I would fail. You know this about every wedding... Is it too late to reverse my destiny like Esther did?

I guess I am just worried, Lord, and I know you command us not to worry because everything is in your control, and you provide everything we need, just like the birds in the air. Help me to do superbly on these next three weddings. Help me to ensure the happiness and blessing of this latest one.

May I succeed in your name, may I prosper because of your provision, may I bless those who hire me for generations to come.

Thank you for this weekend of respite, you know how much i need it.

Love, Caryn