• a really, really beautiful day
• picnics
• hanging out with a friend who knows how to make me laugh
• favorite song aired on the radio
• wearing a nice outfit and feeling damn good about it
• strangers smiling at me
• cute boys
• having plans
• getting to go home late
• a long shower
• having cash in the wallet
• reaching school early
• reading a book that will get me hooked
• cheeseburger
• looking at mirrors that made me look slim and flawless
• thinking of the future
• pictures that bring back good memories
• bumping into an old friend

• Woke up at 9 in the morning and had oats for breakfast
• Texted Rahim to confirm meet up, yet he didnt reply.
• Went to shower and facebook for awhile.
• At 11.30 he still has not replied. Kns.
• Decided not to get ready unless he text back.
• At 11.50, tell me to get out of the house now. (???)
• Rushed, no make up, hair undone, walked to train station
• Bugis to JB Sentral, Immigration, Blablabla
• Bought Haunted House tickets
• Had a quick lunch at some very unhygienic warong that sells very bad maggi goreng, bluekzzxxzx
• Movie started at 3, we were still eating at 3.10
• Rushed into the very dark theatre.

• When you think of the person more often than not. GUILTY.
• When you think about him/her even though you don’t want to. GUILTY
• When you keep mentally reliving past memories with him/her, usually the happy/sweet ones. GUILTY
• When he/she comes to mind the first instant when you are down and out. GUILTY
• When you still have questions and resignations about the past. You wonder what could have been or why didn’t it turn out a certain way. GUILTY
• When you assign blame for the way things turned out, whether it’s to him/her, yourself or the circumstance. GUILTY
• When thought/sight of him/her trigger certain emotional reactions, such as aversion, anxiety, frustration, resignation. GUILTY
• When you keep trying to improve yourself ...

• thinking how my 19th will be like
• where can I get a nice white dress
• You
• Supply Chain terms
• Why isnt anyone talking to me ):
• You
• finding a way to impress mother
• thinking how the well will I survive this week with exams one after another
• You
• Invitations for 16 June
• Work in KL for 2 mths , sounds interesting.
• whether you would call
• You

• A long black dress. ( IS IT A WANT OR A NEED? )
• The Body shop 4 for $10 body lotion ( Jar, too much lotion for what, skin hydration isit?!)
• Constance Briscode , Ugly, at Borders ( Use Brother's SD better)
• small little flowers for floral crown ( TOO EXPENSIVE, get at Daiso better )
• Organizer ( once again, need or want huh huh huh!)
• Blusher ( a need, but too ex )

• ✔ School to start ( YEAHH I KNOWWW)
• ✔ 19th
• ✔ School holidays
• Graduation
• Braces out ! :D
• Getting a job aft graduating
• Being skinny

• Holland
• Zurich
• Amsterdam
• Indonesia
  • Jakarta
  • Lombok
  • Bintan
  • Padang
  • Jogjakarta
  • Surabaya
  • Bali
• Malaysia
  • JB
  • KL
  • Malacca
  • Sarawak
• Thailand

• ✔ Do my nails (esp when I search the entire Singapore to find the colour I wanted)
• Get a Vans
• ✔ Pens & Highlighters for school
• Mac Blusher

NOW ITS GONEEEEEE ): save for another three more mths?

heh, perasan abit.

• I promise you
• Like a rose
• The way I am
• A moment like this
• Grow old with you
• Cant help falling in love with you
• I dont want to miss a thing
• I just call to say I love you
• The way you look tonight
• One in a million

& definitely lots more.

• Things break all the time. Glass, and dishes, and fingernails. Cars and contracts and potato chips. You can break a record, a horse, a dollar. You can break the ice. Chains can also be broken. And so can silence and promises.
• You cant live a life without impact.
• You dont love someone because they're perfect, you love them in spite of the fact that they're not.
• It doesn't take a whole long life to realize that what we deserve to have, we rarely get.
• It is the things you cannot see coming that are strong enough to kill you.
• You can't exist in this world without leaving a piece of yourself behind.
• You don't need water to feel like you're drowning, do you?

• huge kitchen
• nice backyard
• chandelier
• spiral staircase
• dishwasher
• cosy fireplace
• walk-in closet
• a huge library
• huge windows overlooking the seaview
• a wooden swing by the backyard

• camp in the mosque and pray
• visit & ask forgiveness from Ma, Pa, Brothers, relatives, friends etc
• create a blog and post entries about my dying days
• tell my Ma my blog URL and ask her to read it if she misses me
• google on immortality
• donate off my clothes
• go to Orphanage and help out
• make a collage of my life
• tell the man I like how much I love him and even so if I get rejected, at least I know the heal for it.
• gather all my girlfriends together and have a heart to heart talk on why I love them a lot & prolly ask em to change for the better?
• Clean myself
• Oh yes, take out the braces of course! ;D

THINGS NEEDED TO MAKE A SUCCESSFUL WHITE GARDEN 19TH PARTY

• sunshine
• chalet/bungalow/pit
• white tent
• wooden benches
• foliage& poppy flowers
• baskets
• Jazzy music
• Big beautiful sun hats
• Enthusiastic and happy people
• Lavender lemonade
• Chocolate cake with shapes of flower pots
• Cute little cupcakes
• &people dressed in white of course!

Hmmmmm.

• Never to fight with your boyfriend during exam period
• Learn to say no, firmly.
• Never trust a word the locals tell you in Phuket
• Find someone who loves you more than you love him ( tho it doesnt make sense sometimes)
• Get him even if he's ugly or he fat. Changes can happen.
• Never cut your hair few days before Class Photo Taking
• Never ever squeeze a pimple out. Use Colgate instead.
• Make sure you have mint sweets everywhere you go
• Dont say I love you to someone if you're unsure.