🧥 February 🧥

01. why do I keep getting snotty or just plain rude grocery delivery drivers? 02. really bad start to the month. 04. am I still sick? 😩 06. taking the medication yesterday has worked. 07. K is toxic. J is the sweetest. 08. J reached out to me again 🫂. 09. is C with someone else? I wish there was more I could do to help J. 11. dentist barely looked at my teeth. Left my headphones behind. 12. depressed because of my teeth again. I miss when I enjoyed my solitude. 14. another library membership has run out. 15. J sent me a "saw this and thought of you" message. Delivery driver wasn't rude this time. No longer numb. 16. still annoyed at the dentist. Waited 7 months for an appointment and she barely gave me a checkup when I needed (still need) a deep clean. February is another month that I want to hurry up and end. 18/19. J only likes me platonically. 21. tired of abusive neighbours. Looking on the bright side, I am in the long process of moving again. 22. sad because J needs a really long period of space. 23. pretty sure that I do have a gluten intolerance or coeliac disease. 26. life is slowly starting to come back together again.

❄️ January ❄️

02. snowed. 05. snowed again. -4 temperatures. 09. snowed again. Still sick or reinfected? Realising that I already knew a German phrase "guten tag" 11. think I'm numb again from being stuck here and not really doing anyting. 12. realising I already knew other German words in general. 13. feeling like my body isn't my own. 14. down. Bad tension headache. Depressed because of my teeth. 15. dark place, mentally. 23. tired of feeling used. 26. this month feels like the equivalent of 10 months. 28. finally have my motivation back, and self care has been good. 30. still really sick.