8teen she/her/whatever

i'm really into lyricism and drawing right now! i also love philosophy and i'm learning japanese. i contemplate the inevitability of death and the futility of living. i cannot decide whether the latter is a good or a bad thing. i like to string heartfelt words together in glorified journal entries and call them poetry. i speak to the pages in mourning. my biggest fear is to die as i have thus far lived. i like to think that i am a hopeful, passionate and loving person at heart. i am going to die someday. i am going to die someday

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• most people never heal, because they stay in their heads, replaying corrupted scenarious. let it go.
• avoiding something takes as much, or more, mental energy as doing it
• the guilt i feel is an outdated feeling i'm used to, it does not mean i've done something wrong
• it was never my responsibility to stop horrible people/things from happening
• you cannot grow while constantly punishing yourself
• you are allowed to evolve, to forgive yourself, to release the weight of who you once were
• great opportunities live right outside of my comfort zone, and i don't want to miss out on them because of this feeling. i'm doing it scared.
• hope is hard because it reminds me that m...

𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 my fave media of Ever time are bluey, cardcaptor sakura, bang dream, stranger things, she-ra and the princesses of power

• characters i Love include:
  • bandit heeler, bingo heeler
  • yukito tsukishiro, sakura kinomoto, tomoyo daidouji
  • kasumi toyama, reona nyubara, ako udagawa
  • aki hayakawa
  • max mayfield, robin buckley, joyce and hopper (romantically) and el and hopper (not romantically duh, their dynamic is a source of comfort), byler
    • honourable mentions: nancy wheeler and guns. steve and robin (platonically)

the things i would invest more time into if only i didn't have a crippling screen addiction :-(

• learning japanese, piano, drawing, collecting dolls and anime figures, collecting merchandise in general, reading, philosophy, writing, fashion, music