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i'm jeszika kae, people call me kc. i'm tiny, i know and i love it. my life is pretty chaotic, i wouldn't have it any other way. i've suffered, struggled, been there done that. sometimes i feel like i'll never win, but things always fall into place. i laugh and smile constantly, because i'm easy to please. i constantly loose my cell phone, wallet, and all those important things. i constantly worry...

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  • to not be too hard on myself, i blame myself for things that aren't my fault so much that i become depressed
  • to stop bottling my feelings up so much that the smallest of things will break me
  • to stop expecting the kindness I show others to be returned.
  • not always give people the benefit of the doubt, sometimes people change for the worst
  • stop procrastinating
  • i need to stop worrying about what people think of me
  • worrying about the future
  • worrying of change
  • and worrying, in general
  • my public speaking skills
  • trusting
  • to speak my feelings more because i used to repress my feelings and i never spoke to anyone about them because that's how i was raised. so i need to know how to tell others how i feel more often.
  • being a better friend.
  • to handle stress
  • become better at thinking on my feet
  • i need to work on showing my feelings more, like sometimes when i'm really happy i don't show it, i was taught showing feelings make you vulnerable so i didn't show them until recently.
  • to stand up for myself more
  • i need to stop being so forgiving
  • i don't push myself as hard as i should
  • i find the sound of my voice to be horrible and i barely allow myself to yell or scream since i think it sounds annoying if i do.
  • sometimes i say i don't care when it really does matter to me. I need to stop that
  • when i get depressed, i hide it excellently. nobody ever knows but me. i think i should tell people when i am though.
  • i need to stop getting so excited for events since most of the time they don't turn out how i expect them too...i've had a lot of anti climatic moments in my life.
  • i can be very repetitive at times
  • this is embarrassing, but i can't walk in a straight line.. i need to work on that.
  • to learn how to drive properly.
jul 10 2010 ∞
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