"WILD FOR.."

• 1 beansprout dna - 214
• 1 squirt dna - 253
• cadet ssk - 234
• w - 300
• i - 80
• l- 90
• d- 200
• scaled 450*
  • Kimberly
    • Tiger
    • Donald & Tyler
  • Noel
    • Zebra
    • Brandon

• I will travel to a different country
• I will focus on God
• I will spend less money
• I will volunteer more
• I will make a difference in someone's life
• I will lose more weight
• I will only have water for one week (7 days)
• I will only have water for one month (31 days)
• I will go to the gym or do something physically active daily.
• I will organize every room in my house.
• I will get 8 hours of sleep each night, whether I like it or not, LOL.
• I will drink more water & take a daily multi vitamin.
• I will participate in Project 365, I love to scrap, and what a great reminder of the blessings I have.

Some big, some small. Some serious, some ridiculous. But in the end..You learn.

• Dont drink grape juice while walking & wearing a white shirt.
• Once a cheater, ALWAYS a cheater.
• Dropping cell phones in any kind of liquid kills it.
• Never name an animal Shadow. It will die.
• Milk cartons make boring pets.
• If it hurts you, don't do it again.
• When in doubt, duck. When uncertain, dont bother my dear, you are already screwed.
• If you are not living your life to the fullest, you are dead already.
• True love waits.
• Never pierce your belly button in the dark. Trust me. (on a side note, don't get it re-pierced while drunk)
• Being nice as pie to everyone even those ...

• Sore muscles.
• Pressing my bruises.
• Plucking my eyebrows.
• Cracking my knuckles.
• Smelling books.
• Vacuuming.
• Meticulously organizing my itunes.
• Finding spelling mistakes in published books.
• The nose-stinging smell of vinegar.
• Purging my belongings, getting rid of things I don't need or use.
  • Especially getting rid of things associated with old relationships/people that aren't in my life anymore.
• Washing a really dirty load of laundry and folding it fresh and warm from the dryer.
• Cleaning out my ears with a q-tip.

• I like going to bed early when I can sleep.
• I'm always cold.
• I'm frugal with my money.
• I'm fed up with kids these days.
• I take calcium supplements.
• I like to feed the birds.
• I'm a bad driver.
• I enjoy a mulltitude of cats.
• I yell and grumble and generally talk back to the television.
• My memory ain't what it used to be.
• My pharmacist recognizes me.
• I like a good card game.
• Bingo anyone?
• Cardigans are a wardrobe staple of mine.
• I wear slippers.
• I have sticky pads on the floor of my shower to prevent slipping.
• I use phrases such as "dag nabbit" and insults such as "ding bat" in all seriousne...

GREED; Things I covet:

• A massive library of books.
• All of my favorite childhood television shows on DVD.
• A big house with big windows and wood floors.
• A yorkie
• A forever kind of love.

GLUTTONY; Things that I can't get enough of:

• Books
• Strawberries
• The man in my life, my husband.
• Flavored lemonade
• Crystal light candies
• Flats: They're cute, usually cheap and go with most outfits.
• Potato Bread: It's delicious. It's soft.

LUST; Turn-ons:

• My oil light doesn't turn off.
• I have a huge dent in the back end.
• I have a crack in my front
• My left headlight is very foggy
• I need a car wash
• I need new tires
• My windshield wipers no longer wipe, they just kind of slosh the water from side to side.
• I have junk in my trunk. Literally. A lot of it. Including my high school religion book, a deflated soccer ball and a nun costume.
• There is a large dent/scratch along the side with smears of yellow paint where I, oh so carelessly, ran into a pole.
• The twisty cap on one my tires is missing so air is always slowing leaking out and I have to refill it constantly.
• I am out of windshield wiper fluid. I am basically viewing the road through dirt-f...

• theres a step in my pantry so i can climb to the top shelf
• the toilet is tiny so my feet actually touch
• i have a nice size bedroom for once
• secretly watching the birds who land on my window ledge through the blinds. I'm so close and they have no idea.
• the water pressure in the shower
• having a big kitchen w/ new appliances
• having a dining room
• having a living room
• my window lets in a lot of light.
• the pretty string roth tied to my ceiling fan so i can turn the light on and off by myself :)
• the adjustable lights in the dining room
• the breakfast nook in the kitchen
• the breakfast bars in the dining room & the tall stools
• having a spare room for the boxes yet to ...

• declarations of love
  • in books, movies, tv shows, and even in real life
  • i cried the first time my hubby said he loved me..happy tears :)
• climactic kissing scenes in movies
• happy endings
• books with powerful, unique messages
• motivational speeches (have to be really great ones)
• laughing too hard
• feeling directionless and scared
• friends who turn into bitches that you no longer recognize
• mean parents
• hurtful comments
• feeling vulnerable
• unwelcome change
• abandonment

• She suffers from 'Epic Dreams.'
• She's always the odd one.
• She had absent parents.
• She has a complementary personality.
• She has an eating disorder.
• She doesn't think she's worth loving.
• She pushes people away.
• She has a high tolerance for alcohol.
• She reaches beyond her grasp.
• She has an addictive personality.
• She takes charge of situations.

but she doesn't want to be the center of them.

• She can genuinely not think about things.
• She can do incredible things as long as she doesn't realize people can't normally do such things.

• I like having long hair
• I played with barbies when i was little.
• I put more care into my wardrobe than I'd like to admit.
• I cut and dye my hair a lot.
• I'm a cat person
• I'm a feminist
• I like to cook
• I like to think of cool ways to paint my nails
• I dance to music in my room
• I sometimes plan my outfits in advance
• I love flipflops & ballet flats
• I now own a few dresses
• Im addicted to flavored lipgloss
• I love my straightener
• If I were to see a rat/mouse, I would jump on a chair and squeal.
• I like getting my nails done
• I like playing with makeup
• Puffy little kittens with bows in their f...

• Have baggies for everything you bring
• Bring a double-sided laminate for the schedule/map
• Always give bands a listen; it's polite.
• Drink tons of water
• Don't go to the front of a crazy crowd, only to leave early
• There are only 2 food options at Warped (not counting Wonka candy): Greasy fries or Domino's pizza. The choice is obvious.
• Wear sunscreen, even if it's pouring rain and the sun is nowhere to be seen. Apply it EVERYWHERE, even behind your ears.
• Bring a lot of money. Shirts are expensive.
• Bring a big, yet lightweight backpack for all the free stuff you will get.
• If you're going to go into a crowd with a backpack, surround yourself with trustworthy people and tighten the straps, so it won't bounce around as you pogo.

• Lying (I confess like a hooker to a priest within minutes)
• Waiting
• Remembering faces
• Remembering names
• Listening to voicemails
• Trying things again after I fail
• Video games
• Whispering
• Math
• Admitting I'm wrong
• Taking compliments
• Thinking positively about myself
• Studying
• Keeping my resolutions
• Telling people exactly how I feel
• Opening letters neatly

Winter: Likes-

• Hot cocoa
• Cold weather
• New York at Christmas time
• Cute winter clothes
• Being under an electric blanket when it's cold outside
• Blankies
• Church program

Dislikes-

• Overplayed Christmas music
• The shopping rush

Spring: Likes-

• Rain
• Flowers
• Cool weather

Dislikes-

• Allergies

clothes/shoes:

• more ballet flats
  • white chanel flats
• beanies
• bomber jacket
• cardigans
• peacoat
• pull over sweaters
• band hoodies
• vintage-y band tshirt
• bands tshirts

jewelry:

• cute earrings
• necklaces
• hella cute lip rings
• adorable rings
• engagement ring

this is all i want you to do

• kill spiders and other varieties of things that crawl and spread disease, but obviously not our children
• if there is a suspicious sound, you will go check it out
• cuddle
• give me Snoopy, disney movies, a heating pad, midol, and lime sherbert, crystal light candies, tissues, & bottled water when i'm PMSing.
• love me at all times that are humanly possible
• do little things to make me smile
• be faithful
• be honest
• sex me like crazy
• kiss my forehead
• play with my hair
• reach the top shelves and all the high stuff for me (:

• never over 400 calories
• 2 liters of water daily
• only water 4 days of the week, no food
• no sweets, chips, chocolate
• soup, veggies, fruit, & salads ONLY.
• no buying food over 100 calories
• punish myself if i eat over 400 calories.
• only eat & drink low fat/low calorie/no sugar/diet anything
• work out for at least 60 minutes 6 days a week.

binge free:

• 21 out of 22 days of july so far
• no purging yet this month

daily exercise:

• 400 sit ups
• 200 leg lunges (100 for each leg)
• 2000 jumps

• able to give a good massage
• allows to let me take his picture
• beautiful eyes
• can cook atleast one thing
• can tell a good story
• accents
• has good spelling and grammer
• humor
• intelligence
• kindness
• tidy
• knows when i'm just panicking and when it's really time to go to the ER
• likes to take little adventures
• patience
• someone i can learn from
• strength
• tenderness
• will write me atleast one love letter

• are you hurting the one you love?
• no one's laughing at god on the day they realize the last sight they'll ever see's a pair of hateful eyes
• i never ever cried when i was feeling down; i've always been scared of the sound
• one of these mornings you're goin to rise up singing. then you'll spread your wings and you'll take the sky
• we've both been very brave, walk around with both legs
• give me your eyes, i need sunshine
• i'll destroy this useless heart, i'll fuck it up so it'll never beat again. not just for me, but for anyone.
• to buy the truth and sell a lie the last mistake before you die. so don't forget to breath tonight, tonight's the last so say goodbye.
• mama, we're all gonna die
• there's days she almost loves me down to ...

i miss..

• driving to the country to pick out pumpkins in the fall
• apple picking
• fishing :)
• your kind eyes
• when you grew your hair long
• camping at the ledges
• your sense of humor
• icecream truck!
• sharing your waterbed
• holding your hand
• watching you draw
• going to grandma's
• cooking together...even when i would accidently drop all the eggs
• spending an entire day at the movies
• blowing bubbles
• frisbee golf
• chalk drawing
• dancing on tables drunk

• water bottle
• diet pills
• pain pills
• migrane meds
• sketchbook
• book to read
• ipod
• sketch pencil
• colored pencils
• sunglasses
• lip balm
• lotion
• body spray
• travel size toilet paper
• travel size pack of paper toilet seat covers
• anti-bacterial hand sanitizer
• anti-bacterial hand wipes
• every color of hair ties
• hair barrette
• tweezers

• xray vision
• super strength
• impenetrable skin
• super speed
• telepathy
• mind reading
• mood affection
• superior linguistics

• I carry your heart with me - EE Cummings
• Somewhere I have never traveled - EE Cummings
• The Daffodils; or, I Wandered Lonely as a Cloud -William Wordsworth
• After great pain, a formal feeling comes - Emily Dickinson
• "Hope" is the thing with feathers - Emily Dickinson
• A Person/A Paper/A Promise - Earl Reum
• Eat Your Heart Out - Charles Bukowski
• Baby Picture - Anne Sexton
• Lingering by the doorway of the woods - Ian Emberson
• A Dream Within A Dream - Edgar Allan Poe
• The Raven - Edgar Allan Poe
• Life Is Fine - Langston Hughes
• Dream Deferred - Langston Hughes
• You're Beautiful - Simon Armitage
• O Captain! My Captain! -Walt Whitman
• A Blessing - James Wright

• into your arms - the maine.
• beauty in the breakdown - the scene aesthetic.
• use somebody - kings of leon.
• the good life - amber pacific.
• remembering sunday - all time low.
• mona lisa - the all american rejects.
• smile - uncle kracker.
• this is us - keyshia cole.
• the climb - miley cyrus.
• too many words - the sick puppies.
• i gotta stop - lindsay pagano.
• a shot in the dark - a day to remember.
• return to pooh corner - kenny loggins.
• innocent - our lady peace.
• true friend - miley cyrus.
• strong - jordyn taylor.
• i miss you - blink 182.
• memories & meltdowns - from a whim.
• better with you - five times august.
• come what may - the scene aesthetic.

movies (2010)

• Avatar
• Valentine's Day
• Alice in Wonderland
• The Lovely Bones
• Clash of the Titans
• Killers
• Shrek Forever After
• The Karate Kid
• The Last Airbender
• Toy Story 3
• Eclipse
• Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part I
• Despicable Me
• Gulliver's Travels
• Remember Me

crossed out if Read, starred if seen)

• Romeo and Juliet *
• Coriolanus
• Titus Andronicus
• Timon of Athens
• Julius Caesar
• Macbeth *
• Hamlet *
• Troilus and Cressida
• King Lear
• Othello
• Antony and Cleopatra
• Cymbeline
• King John
• Richard II
• Henry IV, part 1 *
• Henry IV, part 2
• Henry V
• Henry VI, part 1
• Henry VI, part 2
• Henry VI, part 3

• Bats
• Snakes
• Spiders
• Being forgotten
• Being alone
• Leaving this world no different then when I came
• Not being able to say "I Love You"
• Being inadequate
• Never being able to truly open up
• Forever be awkward
• Become Boring
• Never truly be respected
• Never find my purpose
• The dark
• Heights
• Clowns

• The day that changed the world
  • March 8th 1988
    • Also known as the day I was born.
  • 22
  • Pisces
  • Warren, Ohio
• Currently Single & not looking
  • Which means:
    • No you can't ask my name.
    • No you can't have my number.
• Employee

• Get married
• Have kids
• Go scuba diving
• Get wasted in Vegas
• Go to Alaska
• Travel to Venice
• Learn a new language
• Climb a mountain
• Swim with a dolphin
• Make out in the rain
• Make out under fireworks
• Learn to take a compliment lol
• Send a message in a bottle.
• Slow dance with someone I love.
• Learn to play the guitar.
• Visit Tash
• Sponsor a child in world vision
• Go on a road trip
• Visit Salem
• Drive a convertible with the roof down through Europe.

• pictures on the wall being straight
• my workspace being neat
• making my bed in the morning
• having a clean kitchen when I go to bed
• my morning routine
• having my books/movies in alphabetical order
• the colors of my notebooks
• doors being closed when I sleep
• my feet having freedom
• my closet being organized: color coded, shoes in plastic shoe boxes
• the house always being clean
• people not getting in my way when im cleaning
• my hair being straightened daily

• i love my job, but it gets sooo frustrating sometimes.
• i hate coffee so i always put hot chocolate in my coffee cup. no one knows.
• i spend too much money.
• i cannot sing
• ive had mono for what feels like forever.
• i love going to the zoo
• mike makes me smile.
• im taking time off school to figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life.
• i didnt go to prom.
• i want to get married in vegas.
• i like to play with the toys at the toy store.
• my nickname is KC
• i want to travel to ireland
• im scared of heights
• i spoil my cats rotten.

ANCHORED

• Scriptina - 47
• Smiley Monster - 20
• Brushes_Crazy - 1.00
• Anchor - 200 x 255

PHOTOGRAPHY LIFE

• Amanda's Script
  • T - 22
  • B - 19
• Camera - 276 x 236
• Film - 700 x 240
  • Kelly O.
  • Jaci B.
  • Crystal S.

• Olives
• Deviled Eggs

-Eggs -Mayo -Paprika

• Cheese

-Swiss -Cheddar

• Turkey
• Mashed Potatoes

-Potatoes -Butter

• Gravy
• Green Bean Casserole

-Green Beans -French Onion -Cream of Mushroom

• Baked Mac N' Cheese
• Stuffing
• Salad
• Rolls

• Belle ("Bonjour!") - Beauty and the Beast
• One Jump Ahead - Aladdin
• Go the Distance - Hercules
• Colors of the Wind - Pocahontas
• I Won't Say (I'm in Love) - Hercules
• Friend Like Me - Aladdin
• If I Never Knew You - Pocahontas
• Prince Ali - Aladdin
• Be Prepared - The Lion King
• Cruella De Vil - 101 Dalmatians
• Part of Your World - The Little Mermaid
• A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes - Cinderella
• Reflection - Mulan
• Once Upon a Dream - Sleeping Beauty
• A Whole New World - Aladdin
• Under The Sea - The Little Mermaid
• Can You Feel The Love Tonight - The Lion King
• He Lives In You - The Lion King

• I'm not clingy
• I have a guy's sense of humor (i'll laugh at your dirty jokes lol)
• I'm a good listener
• I'm open minded/ open to trying new things
• I don't get bored of video games :P
• I can appreciate guys' interests (as long as you don't force them on me if I don't want to partake)
• I don't nag, text/call often, or check up on you
• I'm easy going
• I will let you do pretty much whatever you want (as long as you DONT cheat ... or kill yourself ... lol)
• I would never put guys on the spot by asking their opinion on my appearance & whatnot
• I don't go PDA crazy
• I won't make you go shopping with me

It's safe to say I have broad interests.

• Mythology. The study of myths.
• Paleontology. The study of prehistoric life.
• Anthropology. The study of humans, their biology and their culture, past and present.
• Zoology. The study of the structure, function and behavior of animals.
• Cryptozoology. The study and search for animals largely said to be legendary or non-existant.
• Cetology. The study of whales, dolphins and porpoises.
• Egyptology. The study of Ancient Egypt.
• Oneirology. The study of dreams.
• Geneaology. The study of family lineages and their history.
• Primatology. The study of primates.

For every time I:

• Locked my keys in my car.
• Lost my keys.
• Felt self-concious.
• Didn't wash my car.
• Developed mysterious bruises.
• Couldn't sleep.
• Started a drawing I didn't finish.
• Didn't return a phone call.
• Talked myself out of doing something because of fear.
• Woke up before my alarm clock.
• Didn't study and still did well.
• Hated a picture of myself.
• Questioned the trajectory of my life.

I'd be a rich woman.

Let me emphasize that these are things I would like to believe are real. I don't necessarily do.

• Dream analysis.
• Handwriting analysis.
• The products on infomercials.
• The Bermuda Triangle.
• Stigmata.
• Tarot cards & palm reading.
• Psychics.
• Miracles.
• Crop circles being made by other worldy beings.
• The paranormal, in general.
• Dreamcatchers.
• That love can last forever.
• That there is something else after this life.
• That nothing is impossible.
• Happily-ever-afters.

• The myth of Prometheus disobeying Zeus and bringing fire to humans.
• The myth of Odysseus' escape from Polyphemus by hiding underneath his sheep.
• The myth of Leda and the swan.
• The myth of the Trojan horse.
• The myth of Persephones kidnapping by Hades and the creation of the seasons.
• Any and all Medusa myths.
• The myth of Icarus and his wax wings.
• The myth of Athena being born out of Zeus' head.
• The myth of the Sirens and their hypnotic song.
• The myth of humans being split in half by Zeus and having to spend their lives searching for their other half. (This one reminds me of Trev when I read it. And always brings a smile to my face because i've found my other half.)

I'm short.

Pros:

• I don't take up much room and am comfortable in small places.
• I was and am quite good at hide-n-seek.
• People of shorter stature tend to live longer.
• My guy friends can scoop me up easily and I love that.
• With my height, comes smaller feet. I can always find cute shoes.
• Speaking of shoes, I can wear high heels and not worry about being taller than my man.
• I can sit comfortably in the backseats of small-ish cars.
• I never have to worry about a bed being too small for me.
• In addition, I can comfortably sleep on any couch.
• I could easily be a magician's assistant ...

• I can't or at least won't lie.
• I'm ugly in the face.
• I'm not poised.
• I'm far too loud.
• My weight either goes up or down. ALOT.
• I genuinely believe I'm unlovable.
• My child bearing hips are not attractive.
• Of course, my 40 inch ass isn't that great either.

• adolescence
• balalaika
• bangladesh
• bulbous
• complacency
• diplodocus
• discombobulated
• ephemeral
• fever
• gnarly
• halcyon
• happenstance
• hooplah
• ineffable
• indubitably
• intertwine
• kaleidoscope
• manifesto
• nebulous
• noir
• origami

• If you want a lot of beads, dress up as the Village People
• Tear gas hurts...a lot
• Don't take free edible stuff at pride festivals
• Trannies are fabulous
• There is no joy like that of seeing someone who denied being gay, at at a gay pride festival, making out with their boyfriend
• Water is awesome!
• Andy Cohen is just a little bit taller than me
• Tranny fights are amazing

• Taller than me. (Not a hard feat considering how short I am)
• Preferably athletic.
• Has a nice body shape
• Toned ;)
• Strong hands.
• A very sexy smile.
• Smiles a lot.
• Has a sense of humour.
• Quick witted.
• Keeping on eyes, a very dark brown colour would be nice.
• Preferably dark hair, either black or very dark brown or just brown.
• Ohhh, stubble. I like facial hair. But please, not caveman.
• Polite and well mannered.
• Has respect for people.
• Knows when enough is enough.
• Is not scared to be exactly who he is around me.

• Making lists
• When people smile
• Stars in the sky
• Going to the beach
• Being with loved ones
• Getting flowers
• Laughing
• Christmas music
• Rain
• Candles
• Hot showers
• Hot drinks on a cold day
• Chapstick
• Kneading dough
• Feeling accomplished
• Being productive
• Hugs
• Losing weight
• Endorphins
• Sleeping in
• Heart to hearts and deep conversations

• Day 1 — Your Best Friend
• Day 2 — Your Crush/Significant other
• Day 3 — Your parents
• Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
• Day 5 — Your dreams
• Day 6 — A stranger
• Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
• Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
• Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
• Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
• Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
• Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
• Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
• Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away ...

• my eyes are brown
  • my eyes are apparently the most noticeable thing about me, which is great.
  • i have long eyelashes,never had to use mascara
• my hair is is unruly
  • it's this natural mess of waves & curls
  • i straighten it almost daily
  • i'm growing it out for locks of love
  • i usually just pull it up and pile it into a bun
  • its naturally brown

• the long hard road out of hell - marilyn manson (re-read)
• the heroin diaries: a year in the life of a shattered rock star - nikki sixx from motley crue
• heavier than heaven: a biography of kurt cobain - charles r. cross
• come as you are: the story of nirvana - michael azerrad
• i am ozzy - ozzy osbourne

Current:

• tv shows on dvd
• lists
• playbills
• movie tickets
• fortunes from cookies
• rubber ducks

• House: Slytherian
• Patronus: Fox
• Pet: Pygmy Puff
• Type of wand: 11" Birch with the hair of a water sprite
• Favorite pairing: Draco/Ginny
• Job of choice: Barmaid or dragon keeper
• Favorite classes: Transfiguration and Charms
• Elective: Ancient Runes
• Quidditch position: Chaser
• Character I would end up with: Draco Malfoy

• avoiding or hiding from my problems/escapism.
• being too loud.
• my body.
• saying yes to everything
• too critical of myself.
• too hard on myself.
• sometimes I blurt out explicit things that should really stay in my head, but I don't think
• my facial expressions are extreme, so if someone who I don't like is around, they know it
• i forgive too easily
• i'm naive at times.
• also known as "in tune with my emotions," I'm really, really, really emotional
• i feel ugly sometimes around trev
• i'm insecure and shy when i meet new people at times
• profanity is my middle name

• I want to be reunited with all of the people that have gone before me, especially the ones that I still have unfinished business with.
• I would like to think that there is still more after this life.
• I would like to think that there will be another purpose or another meaning for me after that.
• I would like to never feel pain or heartache again
• I would like to have everything provided in a balanced and fruitful way.
• I want to be able to experience all of the things that I never experienced in this life.
• I want to be reunited with my daughter, Arabella & be able to watch over her.

• i have to sleep with all of my pillows underneath my head propped at an angle.
• i brush my teeth in the shower.
• i have the same shower routine.
  • wash face
  • shampoo
  • brush teeth
  • whiten teeth
  • wash body
  • rinse conditioner
  • shave
  • take out teeth whitener tray
  • linger a few minutes before exiting.
• i snap a rubber band in punishment for thinking about eating.
• my clothes in my closet have to be color coordinated.

RANDOM

• cereal (no milk. orange juice poured over cereal in a coffee cup)
  • cap'n crunch
  • frosted flakes
  • fruit loops
  • fruity pebbles
• new york style strawberry cheesecake pancakes
• jelly sandwiches
• kids cuisine
• yogurt
• string cheese
• salt & vinegar kettle baked chips
• bagels and cream cheese
• salad with blue cheese/italian/french dressing
• fruit snacks/Gushers/froot-by-the-foot
• apple sauce

• holding my daughter in my arms for the first time
• hearing joey call me mommy for the first time
• graduating
• meeting my very own seven dwarfs: matt, jay, mikey bear, mikey d, davonte, tristan, roth
• new york thanksgivings
• seeing my little brother graduate

• The Starry Night by Vincent van Gogh.
• Café Terrace at Night by Vincent van Gogh.
• The Persistence of Memory by Salvador Dali.
• Impression, Sunrise by Monet.
• Harvesters Resting by Millet.
• Escaped Conviction by Alex Pardee.

Cats:

• Tabby (Lives with my mom still - almost 20)
• Jamaica (Lives with my mom still)
• Angel (Deceased)
• Bootsie (Deceased)
• Amy Jo (Lives with my mom still)
• Shadow 2 (Deceased)
• Mama/Precious (Deceased)
• Shadow 3 (Lives with me)
• Snickerdoodlez (Lives with me)
• Sinnamon (Lives with me)
• Starz (Lives with me)

Dogs:

• Shadow 1 (Ran away)
• Simba (Deceased)

Hamster:

• Milo (Deceased)

Fish:

what can i say? im working on it.

• Achluophobia - Fear of darkness.
• Agraphobia - Fear of sexual abuse.
• Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects.
• Altophobia - Fear of heights.
• Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car.
• Ankylophobia - Fear of immobility of a joint.
• Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched.
• Apiphobia - Fear of bees.
• Arachibutyrophobia - Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth.
• Arsonphobia - Fear of fire.
• Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness.
• Athazagoraphobia - Fear of being forgotten or ignored or forgetting.
• Autophobia - Fear of being alone or of oneself.

Girls

• Nevaeh Leigh
• Annabelle Lee
• Alexandria Hope
• Liberty Kae
• Audrina Faith
• Aston Noel
• Ariana Renee
• Addison/Addyson Noel
• Anastasia
• Delilah
• Lilli
• Peyton
• Sydney
• Kylie
• Zoe
• Trinity
• Eden
• Novalee
• Scarlett
• Gabriella

• If I were a season, I'd be Fall
• If I were a month, I'd be March
• If I were a day of the week, I’d be Saturday.
• If I were a time of day, I'd be sunset.
• If I were a planet, I'd be Venus
• If I were a sea animal, I'd be a dolphin
• If I were a bird, I'd be a sparrow
• If I were a direction, I’d be north
• If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a bed
• If I were a liquid, I’d be raspberry lemonade.
• If I were a gemstone, I’d be emerald
• If I were a tree, I’d be a weeping willow
• If I were a tool, I’d be a pen
• If I were a flower, I’d be a calla lilly
• If I were a kind of weather, i'd be snow
• If I were a musical instrument, I’d be ...

• Alabama
• Alaska
• Arizona
• Arkansas
• California
• Colorado
• Connecticut
• Delaware
• Florida
• Georgia
• Hawaii
• Idaho
• Illinois
• Indiana
• Iowa
• Kansas
• Kentucky
• Louisiana
• Maine
• Maryland
• Massachusetts

• call caterer
• decide on theme
• call log
• design new merchandise
• submit the new designs
• buy new business cards
• order new office supplies
• buy stamps
• ship out packages
• call dentist
• print out more campaign posters
• refill meds

• Day 01 – Your favorite song
• Day 02 – Your least favorite song
• Day 03 – A song that makes you happy
• Day 04 – A song that makes you sad
• Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone
• Day 06 – A song that reminds you of somewhere
• Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event
• Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to
• Day 09 – A song that you can dance to
• Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep
• Day 11 – A song from your favorite band
• Day 12 – A song from a band you hate
• Day 13 – A song that is a guilty pleasure
• Day 14 – A song that no one would expec...

• My name was Alyssa Noel. My sperm donor changed it while my mom was loopy after having me.
• My name is Jeszika Kae. On my birth certificate though it reads Jessica Kay. My mom & I hated my name so started spelling it differently. As of summer 2010 it will be changed officially.
• I go by my step-dad's last name.
• I am twenty-two years old; my birthday is March 8th.
  • I share my birthday with my cousin Corey.
• I love Johnny Depp
• I can't do math.

• Duck Tales
• Gummi Bears: I wish I had some gummy berry juice.
• Doug
• Rocko's Modern Life
• Clarissa Explains It All
• Chip n' Dale Rescue Rangers
• The Secret World of Alex Mack: I got electrocuted as a child and thought I had developed zapping powers like Alex.
• Eureeka's Castle
• Muppet Babies
• Tiny Toon Adventures
• Hey Dude
• The Mystery Files of Shelby Woo
• The Flinstones
• Smurfs
• The Busy World of Richard Scarry
• Land of the Lost: I dreamed of living in a tree house like theirs.
• Care Bears

• Numerous sprained ankles
• Strep throat.
• Mono.
• Influenza.
• Tooth abcess/infection: Damn wisdom teeth!
• Extreme dehydration: Hospitalized. My pee was practically the color of iced tea!
• Severe depression.
• Anxiety Disorder
• Bulimia/Anorexia. Hospitalized.
• Piece of glass through bottom of my foot
• Sprained wrists
• Broken leg
• Tonsillitis: Tonsillectomy
• Urinary tract infection.
• Chickenpox.
• Water over-dose
• Broken ribs
• Chemical burns in eyes
• Self-mutilation

• Give them cool names.
• Let them get dirty.
• Foster their creativity and imagination.
• Let them paint their bedroom walls.
• Let them dress themselves.
  • I saw a little girl in the grocery store the other day with an enourmous, billowing, aqua tutu on and I knew she had picked that out for herself.
• Tell them how much you love them every single day.
• Don't yell at them.
  • Yelling is never the best way to convey y...

To foster self-esteem boosts when I am in need...

• My eyes.
• My eye lashes.
• My ears: I've been told they're "cute".
• My small hands: They make me feel a little dainty. Haha.
• My small feet: Most shoes look pretty good on them.
• My height: Sometimes I wish I were tall and leggy but most of the time, being short is pretty okay!

Red:

• English phone booths.
• Cardinals. (Male ones, that is.)
• Bricks.
• Twizzlers.
• Tomato sauce.
• Netflix envelopes.
• Strawberries.
• Blood. Not in a morbid sense, in a wonderful, life-giving sense!

Orange:

• Oranges
• Orange juice
• Orangutans.
• A candle flame.
• My pumpkin spice candles.
• Carrot cake.
• California poppies.

Yellow:

• belly dancing
• ukulele
• guitar
• piano
• to paint
• about all the religions of the world
• a vocation (gypsy)
• the secret to genuine happiness

• I'm very nice, outgoing and friendly.
• I don't like drama
• I'm almost always in a good mood.
• I'm very sarcastic.
• I love people to the point that it hurts.
• I believe that people are inherently good, yet I can't trust them. *I'm optimistic about opportunities and intangible things, but I've been hurt too many times to form real relationships with people.
• I love the arts. You name it, I love it. I enjoy writing and painting, and hope to eventually learn how to play guitar and the piano.
• I've been told I have a strong will. If I want something, I'll do everything in my being to achieve it. I'm not going to be passive and wait for it.
• I'm laid-back, open-minded and opinionated.

• I love gay/bi/trans/pan people and I will have a problem with anyone who tries to cause a ruckus with any of them. Leviticus is the worst part of the Bible.
• I'm anarchist. I know that it's wildly unrealistic, but I find comfort in the anarchist ideal, which in essence is the non-ideal (the non-conceptual). I believe in grassroots and cooperation and education and discipline and decency and joy. I believe the laws of man should flow and complement the laws of nature, and that we should live sustainably. I believe that the right mindset and the cultivation of happy, intelligent, creative, loving, spiritually wealthy individuals is the most important aim of society.
• I believe that life is a random series of events.
• To an extent, I believe in Randian philosophy. I believe that you can only be give...

• people will screw you over and over
• people will always, always leave you behind
• do not put hope on people
• do not, even for a second, think that people feel and cherish and respect you the same way you to do for them
• the people you think or feel you love the most will always disappoint you, to a great extent.
• DO NOT EXPECT OTHERS TO TREAT YOU THE SAME WAY IN THE NICENESS THAT YOU HAVE TREATED THEM
• but they will however treat you like crap when you give them crap, OR EVEN WHEN YOU DIDN'T, OR HAVEN'T.
• some people are just jerks. Ignore them.
• it's OK to be yourself, even though most people don't appreciate it.
• authority figures are inherently untrustworthy.

• Leaving voicemails
• Feeling cold
• Feeling lonely
• Depressing movies
• Wet feet
• People sitting on my pillow
• Cramps
• Gaining weight
• Being judged
• Inconsiderate people
• Feeling ugly
• Crowded places
• Being late
• Oversleeping
• Losing things
• Forgetting things
• Feeling useless
• Being broke
• Worrying
• Allergies
• Low shower pressure

• 8 piercings:
  • 2 in top right ear
  • 1 in top left ear
  • 1 in bottom right lobe
  • 2 in bottom left lobe
  • 1 in nose
  • 1 in lip
• 3 tattoos:
  • Lower back: Cherries - Got for 14th birthday
  • Neck: Heart w/ wings - Designed myself. Couldnt decide between a butterfly or heart. Combined them. Got at 19.
  • Ankle: Butterfly - Got in Dayton. Do not remember getting. Got at 19.
• Piercings I want:

• A leap year
• CDs outsell vinyl for the first time ever
• Prozac is introduced as an anti-depressant
• US advertising is permitted on Soviet TV
• Iran-Iraqi war ends in August
• Human Genome project begins
• Soviets withdraw from Afghanistan
• The Hubble Space Telescope Goes into operation
• 1 gallon of gas cost on average 91 cents
• The first plutonium pacemaker is made
• Archaeologists uncover the original Globe Theatre in London
• World's longest undersea tunnel is completed
• Sonny Bono becomes Mayor in Palm Springs
• Australia celebrates it's bicentenary
• A new drug Crack appears ( A derivative of Cocaine ) and is increasingly found in ...

places i want to have sex:

• a laundry room on top of a washer while it's running
• in a tent
• at a park
• in a pool or hot tub
• in a shower/bathtub
• hood of a car
• on a pool table
• in front of a fireplace
• under the stars.
• the woods after it rains.
• a train in the middle of the night.
• bed with silk or satin sheets.
• bed with rose petals all over.
• the beach at night.
• in the rain.
• a trampoline.
• the car during heavy traffic.
• a field full of wildflowers.
• by a waterfall

I'm crossing some of these out because I will NOT do them or don't want to do them!

• Bought everyone in the bar a drink
• Swam with dolphins
• Climbed a mountain
• Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
• Been inside the Great Pyramid
• Held a tarantula
• Taken a candlelit bath with someone
• ✔ Said “I love you” and meant it
• ✔ Hugged a tree
• Bungee jumped
• Visited Paris
• Watched a lightning storm at sea
• ✔ Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
• Seen the Northern Lights
• ✔ Gone to a huge sports game
• Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa

• hot topic
• spencers
• pacsun
• apple bottoms
• toofast
• find cool clothes

The following list represents things that I need to avoid in order to feel like a more complete and whole person. None of these things will happen overnight and I don't expect to ever achieve some of them.

• negativity
• judgmental people
• angry people
• cynical people
• unhealthy habits
• binging & purging.
• restricting.
• not sleeping.
• overworking (i will conquer this!!!)
• unhealthy relationships.
• being a 'yes' girl.

• the mall bathroom
• backseat of car
• middle of a baseball field
• middle of an open field
• in the parking lot of a museum
• on a sliding board at a park
• in someone's moms room
• in someone's living room while their mom was upstairs
• in a creepy motel
• in a hospital

• band t-shirts
• jeans
• all star shoes
• flats in all colors
• flip-flops in all colors
• bra
• panties.
• leggings
• hoodies
• bigggg purse

• to not be too hard on myself, i blame myself for things that aren't my fault so much that i become depressed
• to stop bottling my feelings up so much that the smallest of things will break me
• to stop expecting the kindness I show others to be returned.
• not always give people the benefit of the doubt, sometimes people change for the worst
• stop procrastinating
• i need to stop worrying about what people think of me
• worrying about the future
• worrying of change
• and worrying, in general
• my public speaking skills
• trusting
• to speak my feelings more because i used to repress my feelings and i never spoke to anyone about them because that's how i...

Dexter

• season 1
• season 2
• season 3
• season 4

One Tree Hill

• season 1
• season 2
• season 3
• season 4
• season 5
• season 6
• season 7

White Collar

• season 1
• season 2

Law&Order: SVU

• season 1

• randomly do something nice
• text me cute things that make me smile.
• play with my hair.
• actually read.
• correct their spelling & grammar errors.
• work hard for something.
• are open-minded.
• call me in the morning as im laying in bed.

Websites I have an account on:

• Myspace
• Facebook
• Plurk
• Twitter
• Formspring
• Listography
• MyWonderfulLife
• PT

• "the minute you think you're going to lose something, it suddenly becomes the most important thing in your life."
• "when you love someone there’s nothing you can do, you no longer control your heart, it controls you."
• "a woman should understand a man more than she loves him; a man should love a woman more than he understands her."
• "the minute you settle for less than you deserve, you get even less than what you settled for. don't be afraid to believe that you can have what you want & have what you deserve."
• "the expected is what we live for. the unexpected is what changes our lives."
• "there are things in life that never last. but the truth is, you never lose them until you let them go. life is about choices: hanging on, holding back, letting go. some things do last if you just let them...

• My grandpa: The first person I knew who died. But before that he loved me and cared for me. He was everything to me.
• Joshua: My first real kiss. He died in eighth grade in a car accident coming home from Six Flags. He was a great friend.
• Matt: My first real everything. He was my boyfriend, my fiance, and he's the father of our son. He told me to love, he told me to be strong, and he taught me the value of forgiveness. He will always have a place in my heart.
• Duke: The man who taught me to stand up for myself and fight back. He gave my daughter life and he took it away. He taught me everything a relationship is not supposed to be.
• Alex P: He taught me that life isn't fair. He died loving me. I will never forget how he made me laugh.
• Kayla: This girl taught me to follow your...

• Live & let live
• People come in and out of your life for a reason. Instead of holding grudges, appreciate what those people did for you, and how much stronger they made you.
• Nothing worth having comes easy.
• Life is not fair.
• You have to do what makes you happy.
• Love does conquer all.
• Someday the world will know peace, so be the change you want to see in the world.
• I should not be given a cell phone when I have been drinking. Bad things happen.
• You don't like my relationships? Screw you. I will not be forced to choose.
• LIVE each day as it were your last, for one day you will be right.
• LOVE yourself first and foremost, for when you truly love yourself, loving those around you will come as easily as breathing - and we all must breathe.

• France
  • Paris
  • Nice
  • Normandy
  • Chambord
  • Versaille
• England
• London
• Ireland
  • Dublin
• Switzerland
• Austria
• Italy
  • Venice
  • Rome

MAKEUP

• maybelline dream matte powder in Honey
• maybelline dream mousse blush in pink frosting
• maybelline dream mousse
• bonne bell glimmer bronze loose powder
• maybelline brush blush (sweetheart rose)
• shimmery bone liquid eyeshadow
• physicians formula baked sands eyeshadow
• black kohl eyeliner
• mac hello kitty lip liner & eye liner
• mac eye pigments
• mary-Kate & ashley eye glam eye shadow trio
• covergirl lip smoother lip liner (spices)

FACE

• pond daily lotion
• olay daily facials
• biore pore strips