✧ CONTEMPLATING THE PAST AS YOU MAKE YOUR WAY OUT OF THE IRON CAGE:

• new year, new problems. you got some good awards and some great college decisions, but it seems like your efforts are fading away. engineering is falling and the teacher is being extra creepy. nhs is falling and so is hte rest of them. are you really a leader if your efforts lead to nothing. it's hard to keep on going to school when you can do the bare minimum and still be congratulated for your efforts, but right now, just relax and keep going.

✧ BE THE TEACHER THEY DESERVE:

• 02/01/2024 ➣ today you spent your day playing slay the spire, and doing some stuff around the house. you finish up some assignments and also get some scholarships in. happy black history month, but we going through some tough times as black people. you had a talk with your parents about the crockett situation, it's overall just a stupid situation because why are they going to make you lose your scholarship over the fact that your parents are just busy people.
• 02/02/2024 ➣ this is gonna be a long day. you ended up doing calculus, personal finance, physics, speech communication, and philosophy work for like 10 hours. not to mention you had to write your reports and other essays. it was very brutal. but you did view the grammies and saw doechii and kendrick take their w's plus some other cool moments with sabrina and other artists. but you are very tired and you need to fix this method of getting work done or else you are cooked.
• 02/03/2024 ➣ you go to school and you work on taking pictures and the bridge report. the goal is to get 20-25% of it done each day. other than that, you try to get other assignments done but it's a lot of work sometimes. you did some manual labour but it seems like your magnet coordinator got your back and will give you your other hours. oh but a chick fil a truck came to school, and there were three fights over free chick fil a. luckily, you were able to get free food because of your hard work. you go home, and sleep. then go shopping with your mom for the senior brunch. then sleep some more, get some work, or just whatever. damn life is just annoying.
• 02/04/2024 ➣ after falling asleep with no work done, you wake up and talk to your one friend since she was having a midlife crisis after playing balatro. you share some random poetry despite being so gloomy and tired. but you get ready and go to school. while the tech team does their job, you and some engineers go to some middle schools and speak to middle school students. then you go back to school, listen to some music, watch your nhs advisor kinda crash ot (it's kinda justifiable), and just work on bridge reports. you go home, and the parent thing does not work out for the tampa trip, so you might lose out on a scholarship but oh well. then you go shopping for your final fits for your senior brunch and get work done.
• 02/05/2024 ➣ you wake up and go to school and work on the report. your teacher says some disgusting and useless stuff and you walk around getting stuff for your advisors. you get your senior hoodie and you work until the nhs interest meeting goes on. you go back home and you get some work done. "i don't know, is she gonna go crazy? is she gonna go crazy? everybody wanted to know what doechii would do if she didn't win. i guess we'll never—. stepped out the swamp to the motherfuckin' stage (ho). cut my mic off 'cause i'm 'bout to misbehave (hah). "will she ever lose?" man, i guess we'll never know. "will she lose hеr cool?" i guess we'll nevеr—. i hopped out the swamp, gave the bitch props. "doechii, where you been?" "doechii went pop". "will she ever lose?" man, i guess we'll never know. "will she lose her cool?" i guess we'll never—. i guess we'll never know. guess we'll never see the day that doechii crown falls. guess you'll never live to see the day that doechii loses. do-si-doin' on these doechii mutants. doechii don't critique, i seek improvement."
• 02/06/2024 ➣ you woke up and got ready to go to your senior brunch. after helping your magnet coordinator with a powerpoint, you take a trip to your senior brunch and it was nice and you enjoyed yourself, but you still have this missing feeling when you go to these senior events. oh well, you come home and sleep and watch beast games. you get a call from a team member about nationals and you tell the team to keep working and not to rely on your engineering teacher. you take a walk and think about the rest of your senior year.
• 02/07/2024 ➣ you had a discussion with a friend about the recent bsd chapter and it was pretty intersting. "off-white sunseeker at the marina. fuck a phantom, i like to buy yachts when i get the fever. wine cooler spill on my white t-shirt, the sightseer. trifecta, money, morals, and culture, that's my leisure. my visa, passport tatted, i should hub in ibiza. lucalis dwellings in brooklyn just to book me some pizza. who could reach us? only god could teleport this type of freedom. god, ah, my confession is yours. but, who am i if i don't go to war? there's opportunity when livin' with loss. i discover myself when i fall short. raise my hands to a fallen sky, i fantasize. me jumpin' planets immortalized, i correspond. three angels watchin' me all the time. put my children to sleep with a prayer, then close my eyes. definition of peace. tell me who gon' stop me? i come from love. estelle cover my heart, then open me up. remember when picked up a pen, lyrics that i can trust. timid soul, stare in the mirror, askin' where i was from often. i know this type of power is gon' cost. but i live in circadian rhythms of a shooting star. the mannerisms of raphael, i can heal or give you art. but the industry's cooked as i pick the carcass apart." you go to school and waste your time because the meeting got cancelled. you spent the day working on the report, hearing relationship issues, listening to music, and just going home and doing more work. your friend tells you how this person with biceps ultimately lives with her college worst nightmare. but you do have a big game tomorrow, so get some sleep.
• 02/08/2024 ➣ you wake up to go to a dodgeball competition. you get there and your team does alright but gets cheated out of the third round even though there was film. it was fun though, even though you only played for 20 seconds. you also almost did a backflip. you felt bad that your underclassmen can drive on their own unlike you. you come back home to do some work and talk to friends.
• 02/09/2024 ➣ you wake up working on some assignments. after that you go to church and see old faces and watch some guy talk and preach for like 30 mins about whatever. other than that, you get back home and you keep on working on all of your assignments. calculus, philosophy, personal finance, physics, and more. you take a break by watching the amazing superbowl halftime show by kendrick lamar where tiramisu was revealed. you finish up some tests, save your philosophy grade, and even though you want to work on the report, you end up falling asleep.
• 02/10/2024 ➣ after working hard, you get ready for school while listening to kendrick's halftime performance. you spent the entire day working on the report, but that also means hearing some crazy things from a certain airheaded therapist who honestly needs to learn how to close her mouth. even though you wasted time at school today because the sga meeting got cancelled, you're happy you went. not only did you get an invitation for the outstanding senior award and found out how long your speech was, you talked to friend about hanging around a certain person and told them they weren't being fake if they started distancing themselves from the person.
• 02/11/2024 ➣ you stay home from school and work a lot on the bridge report. you're very nervous about the bridge report and unsure of every word you write on it, but you are going to continue trying your best. while you write and get other work done, you keep on listening to the kendrick halftime show as its trending. you also finished the genshin archon quest right before the update happened. you get your stuff done before falling asleep.
• 02/12/2024 ➣ you wake up wondering how you're going to get everything done before you leave friday morning. you spend the day trying to get stuff done for the report before the spring preview. you attempt to get your teacher's attention report but then he says "no, i got no time for that." and proceeds to talk to ms. therapist about random girls he sees on his phone. the spring preview went alright and you kids talked to plenty of interested students. you even found some students who knew you as valedictorian you talked about you and it was cool. you talked about random stuff, went home, slept, and just kept on working and working til you had to go on a meeting.
• 02/13/2024 ➣ "what if i die a taurus? what if i die on purpose? what if it wasn't even worth it? what if i'm walkin' alone? what if i choke on this slurpee? what if i make it big? what if my car exploded? while i'm casually pumping the gas and smokin' a cig? what if my life was loaded? loaded pile of shit whole lotta pussy and a whole lotta dick whole lotta bills and a whole lotta kids. that's it, that's it, that's it, that's it, that's it, that's it, that's it..." you go to sleep exahusted after a stupid calculus problem. you wake up tired and exhauted, you keep on working while everyone else has festivities and fun. you do some assignments and go to school to hear that your engineering teacher might actually be a pedo because the new relationship is 58 and 20. you have a meeting with your nhs, talk about future plans. then you talk to your nhs crew about tea (disappointing tea about one of your friends), and crazy shit teachers are doing. then, you get home, deal with some bipolar activity from certain people, and talk to a friend about the colors of humanity and how we paint as a response to it.

✧ STOPPING BY FOR A SNEAK PEAK OF THE SWAMP:

• 02/14/2024 ➣ you fell asleep and slept walk to your bed. it looks like its time for you to pack and head to tampa with a bunch of work to finish. you get to the foundation, put on your blazer, get lucky in the jjk gacha game, and spend the entire bus ride writing the report. your first stop in the swamp is the st. petersburg city hall. it's pretty cool and has some nice employees. your arm almost died when it suffocated under another person. however, you got some art and found out your scholarship might go towards housing and tuition. after that, you guys decided to go usf and tour the campus, which was nice cause this was one of the schools you were planning on going to. it was an alright experience. you talked to one of your roommates about them betting on getting a girl's number. after touring the campus, seeing dorms and whatever, and seeing the black leadership network, you have second thoughts about usf. your friend's mother talked to you about college and how you're valedictorian, but how you and her mother should still be proud of the future lpn. you guys went on the bus, immediately went to go see the captain america brave new world movie. it was alright, too many cuts and too much going on, but it was cool for what is was. you got to your hotel, shared a room with a friend, and found out a lot about your roommate. he seems really interested in girls and has massive fomo, but like 80% of his thoughts and actions are related to getting girls, it's crazy. however, you told him that one of your friends knew him, and he decided to diss your friend. you went on a call with said friend, talked about the engineering teacher situation and other stuff, but also how he just got dissed. he responded with an insulting description of your roommate, which is relatively accurate. you got your speech done, and then headed to bed.
• 02/15/2024 ➣ you woke up and got ready for breakfast, your roommate, who was still sleeping, got his breakfast carried up to him. today, you guys are going to the raymond james stadium, a water taxi, and popstroke. the bus broke down so you guys had to walk to the raymond james stadium, see some pretty sights and even a stadium's jail cell. it was cool and some nice facts came along with pictures on a ship and incredible vip lounges. you went to chilis' spilled some ketchup on your pants, and went on a water taxi. it was fun at first and some beautiful sights with beautiful activities and houses. however, it got boring kinda quick. you did talk to another student's mom who noticed you working on the report, being a gentle man, and some other cool things. you guys talked about college, how to not end up wasting your degrees (like the tourist on the water taxi), and how we both have a natural carribean motivation and work ethic. you guys eventually went to popstroke and you played a lot of minigolf and had fun. at the end of the day, it looks like you got a lot of work to do and your adventure is about to come to an end. but when you get back, you play some games with friends as your roommate works out. after that, comes this mess...
• 02/16/2024 ➣ you wake up at 1am and work until 4am on school assignments. it's tiring and then you fall asleep for two hours and get ready for breakfast and to leave the hotel. it was quick and you had to do a test in the middle of all of it while getting ready. while on the bus, you get a bit of work done and arrive at the university of tampa. it's kinda wack at first but you meet some cool people and go to an english and computer science class. after that, you catch up with the rest of the crew for a tour around campus and watch your friends collaspe and fall asleep. on the bus ride home, you try to get some work done in a very hot bus. you eventually arrive back home. you eat food and try to get some work done, and then you...

✧ MADE BY PRESSURE, COMES A SCRATCHED DIAMOND:

• 02/17/2024 ➣ fall asleep. it's 12:07am. You missed three assignments and you quickly email all of your teachers for extensions but you realize that you just threw away your 4.0. just like that, it hurts so much. you're up til one in the morning trying to think about it. no one is responding to you, everyone is asleep. you've messed up and you're on your own. you talk about it with your mother but ultimately you get back a response from your philosophy teacher saying you can't resubmit. it hurts a lot, but it's just the result of you having zero sleep. you can't even remember what else to put on this day, but your failures. you probably just played games, like balatro and shit.
• 02/18/2024 ➣ you're still feeling it after the events that happened recently. to deal with this. on tuesday you got ready for your driving test the next day while still dealing with your failures.you're trying to feel better about it but it's whatever. other than that, you did go to the congressman meeting thing you had the other day. it was pretty cool to see that happen but you had to get going. you go home, practice some more, and do some work, play some games, go to sleep.
• 02/19/2024 ➣ you wake up feeling horrible about your mistake, but you are still learning from it. you go practice driving tomorrow for your test. after that, you go to the dmv, wait to take your test, only to find out you can't because you can't fucking see. you go home disappointed and just stay in a slump for the entire day. you get your package from georiga tech and you get no money for them. you started watching abott elementary. now you can't probably even go to georiga tech, fuck this shit.
• 02/20/2024 ➣ you wake up and get some work done. you seem like you're gonna have a meeting and get your glasses today. you got a haruno ssr in bsd mayoi and a kenji ssr. it's honestly painful to miss almost a week worth of entries and have majority of them related to the mistake. you went out to go try out and buy some glasses. they look pretty nice on you. you go home to finish some assignments
• 02/21/2024 ➣ after seeing a nice message from your physics professor, you get more work done. you talk to your friends about how busy they are, how stress they are, or how they are overcoming their struggles. you watched a ton of abbott elementary and even got to season 2. you now prepare to go rake the backyard. you now are just writing old entries and goddamn and hurts so much to reflect on.