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• (2/16/25) when angela talked to me of it, kind of barely but thats okay, she said if knew how to do my job, in a genuine way not an asshole remark and i told her i did, and she said the order (that didnt exist) was priced as 3 dollars and it was supposed to be 10, says laura, and i asked her why i would do that and explained a step by step of how to do my job to her, and she did a mental 'okay' and then called over jayden, and i had to get back to work so i just let them talk because i didnt feel like i should be there

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• (2/16/25) LAURA. got me and jayden in trouble, over an order she made up because i guess shes bored not stomping her feet and whinning to my manager angela over anything ever, so she said theres an order that got priced as 3 dollars when it was supposed to be 10, but never told angela what the order had. fuck you, if youre going to lie can you atleast make it a cohesive telling can you be capable of actually telling a good lie?

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• (2/16/25) jaydens back :D and he talked to me of his trip a bit and it was funny, a delightful trip of just going to las vegas and just staying in a hotel, thats funny, he was fun to work with and talk when i could but it was hard to the storm that hit knocked out everyones power so everyone went to where i work and i work customer service. you can imagine how that went.

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• (2/9/25) i think maybe TJ and i could be decent friends im getting into routine of picking at him and hes reciprocating but im not sure how much to lean into it just yet, maybe a new friend,, that is very exciting

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• (2/2/25) theres this customer named jimmy who comes around and hes a very funny man and very loud and i joked with him that since i havent gotten my name tag maybe he could complain and have someone look into it for me too and he did and now i may actually get a name tag after four months of working where i do

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• (2/2/25) i scared jayden and lilly today it was fun first off, also jayden keeps calling me a mini person and kept asking if i was okay over every single thing im not that little i dont think i look that fragile either

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• (1/29/25) apparently mario thinks of me like a little sister, which i find very endearing i didnt realize he enjoyed me i need to make more small talk with him

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• (1/27/25) yeah miss laura's parasocial nature with me faded, and she likes snarling and rolling her eyes at me and harassing me while making everyone elses jobs harder, im not a fan of older white women who have such an ironfist over things so mundane ma'am please get off your self righteous act im starting to think most of our coworkers dont like you and i dont think im wrong because i hear less positive things about you over time

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• (1/26/25) jayden is still surprisingly attentative he kept asking if i was okay and how i look strained or tired all day, i dont know if i did i couldnt check my eyes to see if i was still high or not

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• (1/19/25) a new guy named jayden who ive worked with i think three times has been surprisingly attentative and told me that when my glasses are higher on my face, the more stressed i am and the lower they are the better mood im in and i realized hes right, also it feels lime ive been told that before

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• (1/19/25) theres an new girl named lilly and she HUGED ME BEACUSE I THANKED HER FOR HER HELP :D and i dont know i didnt expect it no one seems to like me at work asides from connor thats literally it

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• (1/19/25) should i be surprised about this? no, am i? yeah kind of miss laura actively stood around and made two whole subs at work, as where im at directly beside her and where she works was getting flooded the entire day, and she stood there and gave me disgusted looks, insulted my work and never helped once, i had jason who was helping but he had to keep getting things for me which i always appreciate

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• (1/18/25) i spent time with cameron, and it was delightful and i like joking with him and being an oddity and he doesnt question it, its nice seeing him laugh along with me and i like making him laugh and our odd conversations

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• (1/17/25) i scared jason on accident because i kept walking too quietly behind him and it was funny the first time but i tried to be very obvious that i was walking over the second time and i still somehow scared him

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• (1/12/25) hanging out with friend cameron it was really fun i liked walking around and just talking and laughing i didnt expect to be so excited i think im just manic but thats fine he was really fun to talk to and spend time with

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• (1/10/25) jeremiah put a 'miss' infront of my name when talking to me and that surprised me im not used to being respected also im not a miss but that doesnt really matter i look like a woman so its fine im not outing myself

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• (1/8/25) isiah talked to me, like a person for one and i didnt expect that, he is very childish though but hes also 19 i think, or 18.. something like that he still very much talks like a child with a big ego but im just surprised that he talked to me like a person

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• (1/7/25) miss angela was upset that we discussed how i cant work from 1-8 because i need to take care of my disabled mother and she did the whole rub face of stress and im more surprised my trauma response of 'do you want me to be hurt as a way to apologize' almost left my mouth thats not very swagger of me and im kind of upset she triggered that response and i almost said that shout out to childhood trauma hunting me down to this day

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• (1/6/25) jessica called my hair pretty and she offered to help me if i needed it and infact went out of her way to help me even though she didnt need too

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• (1/6/25) kathy told me she appreciates my time and that shes thrilled to work with me and that means alot from a shift lead, i didnt expect her to be happy with me and that felt nice i dont expect her to like me

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• (1/6/25) EVERY UP MUST HAVE A DOWN angela my manager changed my schedule, which is normal and typical of course, but then also didnt talk to me about any of the changes and left right after before i could talk to her, the only 'discussion' we had was her being stressed and rubbing her face after she told me 'you told me you were always available' and it for some reason unlocked a trauma response from me which i forgot i could have, and also i didnt say that because thats lying, and i DONT lie because it makes me FEEL BAD and now im going to work eight days in a row

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• (1/5/25) isiah was complaining to me about how he doesnt like doing the truck because he doesnt understand it and he has to do all the hard work and because women take him he addresses them as 'females' when hes upset and i think ints an interesting incel take to decide that when women make you mad you dehumanize them

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• (1/5/25) Connor reassured me that I'm a good friend and I don't know how or why but that made me not want to kill myself so that's a win that impressed me also I may get 30 dollars worth of donuts over time

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• (12/24/24) jeremiah called me nice and that also surprised me when im acknowledged

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• (12/24/24) daisy from work made a little gift bag for me and made a little 'for you' thing on it and its all cute,,

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• (12/24/24) work at christmas day was so nice, beth madi and sandy all made little christmas hot coco and gave it to everyone and i dont have the heart to make mine because its so cute and no ones ever celebrated christmas with me since i was like.. fuck maybe 13?

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• (12/23/24) never done on one calls alone almost at all and I jumped the gun in being excited when Zac asked to have one with me and I went 'oh shit wait' as I jumped off the cliff and I thought I would've made it awkward but he seemed pleased with my existence even when I wasnt masking that hard I need to do this with Keira next

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• (12/23/24) I'm not used to being away from close friends of any period and then I got churches time very briefly and I'm like 'wow my friends still enjoy me though new job hell' AND THAT MAKES ME HAPPY I'm glad nothing's changed

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• (12/19/24) wow i hate my job im achey oh but laura is still being nice to me so thats nice and connor worked with me on hotbar :D i miss my friends maybe i am being normal now, oh i hope so,, anyhow i have another person interested in me and im surprised that i guess i look hot in a hairnet thats like three people now and i love being poly i love thinking about charming people kissing me

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• (12/18/24) Okay i have an older woman coworker named Laura and i think she hates me but she actually teased me today and i dont think she was being mean about it i think she was trying to relate to me except she wants me to be relatable in the sense that im just a younger version of her! oh boy i hope this doesnt become something parasocial please be normal to me miss Laura i would love to be a coworker friend