I’d just like to take a moment to talk about Morrissey and a bit on the smiths. Morrissey and The Smiths as a whole both have really helped me for what feels like the longest time now, though, I know being lonely has made life feel like it’s never ending. The Smiths gave me a reason to keep going in a way, I don’t feel alone, I feel lonely, yes, but, I don’t feel like I am alone with the problems I face. I’ve always struggled with loneliness and wanting people who didn’t want me, I never thought too much about anyone else feeling the same way I did, nor could I ever find the words to really state how I’ve always felt. This band has changed my life and I may seem quite foolish for it but, I’ve never felt more happy despite being physically alone. This band means more to me than anything I could really think on, I feel something with the music, every song I can find a way to connect to, I fall in love with every song with each listen, it’s like listening to it for the first time. I feel such a deep connection to each song, it’s like I finally found something to temporarily fill this emptiness I hold. With Morrissey though, I really relate to him so much despite his stupidity and his way of thinking at times. Morrissey is the type of guy I want to be, at least the good traits. I want to express myself in my art, I want to be loved but, I always want to be loved by those who don’t notice me nor care. I want to be loved someday by someone who loves me too and I want to love with all that I am. I found someone I loved the most already but, that’s gone and I just want to leave love behind after that. I’ve become comfortable with being alone now and I can never feel the way again nor do I want to. I’m happy just being kind to others. The Smiths and Morrissey himself have really made me come to terms with my homosexuality and with confirming to myself that I am a guy and that I’m valid as one. They’ve made me understand what I want in life. I won’t be happy now or I could possibly just never be happy but, I won’t know if I don’t continue to move forward and I’ll be around until maybe someday I can go to a concert and meet Morrissey or I can sing and perform in front of people someday. Whenever life takes me, I won’t be alone for the music keeps me company at best. I don’t know if anyone else will be able to relate to me or understand my feelings as passionate as I am but, I hope this just gives anyone insight on me, and that nothing is too stupid to keep you alive. We are people and we can fall in love with our interests as we do with people.