- need to learn how to confront the physical and learn where it is located
- is satisfaction from pulling it out or putting it back in?
- long story short-- I need to find someone, or at least become better at finding someone, or become better and those anonymous things without any of those loose ends.
- Need to learn how to confront my will to be alone w something that i cannot do for myself
- and all the negative things that being Not Alone bring, even if it's good, in the moment
- garnet, malachite, rainbow obsidian
- november 14/13; 9 months after valentines day. last thing u did, i did, etc. The year passes over. Isn't it weird how one day you were born and that's when the world began to move, except for me it was already moving for some solid months, and so when your head popped out of that hole it wasn't a birth but something wet and unnatural and by then/now, mediocre and well lived. This is how you are supposed to cry, and touch things, and feel.
- I was never a good teacher but at least I know how to capture life and hold it, and make it real.
- Erick Erickson and the stages
- flying a plane
- i am debating smoking a cigarette over the mendota
- in the same way that one debates cutting their hair
- when something leaves we tell each other that it will grow back, but this is more traumatic and more dangerous, and I'm not sure if I can cut out what can metastasize, because we both know I was never any good at that.
nov 13 2016 ∞
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