• summer isn't going as planned
  • sweaters, hoodies, long sleeves i can't put into words how much i miss you
  • out of school's asshole and i manage to find a different schedule i hate being on
    • man i want school to start
  • i only feel comfortable going places by myself only if i'm wearing a jacket, another reason why winter should hurry
  • pretending always gives me a tiny sense of "insert synonym for contentment here"
  • http://tinyurl.com/3ufm568
  • sometimes it's better not to see distant relatives at all
  • finding a bit of peace in someone else's happiness
  • when you write something late at night and re read it the previous day it, you start to wonder if you were intoxicated and if you let a pen take over your hand
  • you leave me no choice but to plot my revenge
  • i've turned into the biggest southern sloth
  • remember that thing a couple bullets up where i said i wanted school to start? i'm not sure about that anymore
  • never mind i'm pretty excited, ^ that was just my nervousness taking over my keyboard
    • never mind i want it to end
  • but what do you do when you develop strong emotions for someone in your dream
  • ))<>((
  • when will things change
    • i've been through bad i've been through sad and now all i want is a little bit of blissfulness
  • i noticed the other night that i always make up these little scenarios in my head that are never going to happen before i go to bed. they're kind of like a short movie, most of the time they're basically based upon hopeless romantic thoughts and stuff like that
  • a book of short stories based on all the dreams i have
  • solitude really is a great thing. this weekend has been fairly good to me and i wish i could thank it in some kind of special way. it's days like these when i realize my life may be boring, but generally, it's not so bad and that i shouldn't be wasting it in negative ways
  • the other day someone at school told me that i like making lists... which is true... not more on listography but actually getting a piece of paper and making a list
    • i'm going to be such a well organized grocery shopper and just an organized person in general
      • (no i'm not)
  • controlled by lust
  • misguiding myself from all inspiration that used to bound me
  • waiting has become a large word in my vocabulary, along with comfortless
  • i've realized that autumn/winter are just seasons of heartache after heartache
  • no matter whoever i come in contact with i literally find no one un interesting
  • "if everyone jumped off a bridge would you?"
    • "probably"
  • november and december are probably two of my favorite months out of the whole year but i've noticed they always come with the biggest downfalls and the greatest letdowns
  • how is it possible to be so in love with a city you've never been to
  • i always get this urge where i wanna create something so great, i get all this inspiration and build up this stamina where i feel like i can make something that i'll be very proud of. i have these urges and inspiration but no actual creativity to put any of it into motion
  • spring/summer are my number one enemies
    • get my ass out of the south
  • it's seriously time i get back into writing. i've been putting it off for what seems like ages. every time i write though i piss myself off because i think i'm never going to be the good writer i want to be
    • just keep telling yourself "practice makes perfect, rodolfo"
  • listography is just a big fat reminder of how stupid i am
  • slowly forgetting how to think
  • seeing the same scenery in my home everyday hasn't driven me insane yet but i have a feeling it will pretty soon
  • my brain feels so dead, i feel like i'm slowly forgetting how to think and becoming really bad at putting words and sentences together. just a matter of time before i forget how to speak and communicate with other people and myself in general
  • fall be kind
  • i need to start overcoming these little non-important fears i have developed
  • THIS LIST IS THE BIGGEST SELF PITY PARTY I HAVE EVER SEEN
jun 9 2011 ∞
jun 11 2015 +
user picture d: I like this a lot and I hope you're okay. oct 10 2011
user picture mytimemachine: I like this list. And hey, maybe you need to be a bit kinder to yourself, you don't seem so bad :) jun 22 2012