I've deluded myself into thinking I am not as stressed as I have been lately. I went outside to try and ripen back in touch with nature again and gardened a little, planted some new flower seedlings, and watered the rest of my plants. I haven't forsaken them, I've 'just' lost my connection, which is sad as they are like my children. But, I'm happening to find the roots back to where I've learned to ground myself in the soils and release whatever stress I have, for whatever 'unknown' reasons.