• ...back then and even now, your hand is like a warm spring that was meant for me and melts me [...] you, who hugged me when I was cringing, I’m thankful that you were there, to me, you are my spring, thank you so much.

you make me feel alive. i thought that i should start this text saying this. about life, about living, about how YOU make me feel alive, about how YOU make me live. cause, if i have things in my life that i'm really thankful for, you made them, a lot of them was because of you, because you were there for me, you were there to hold me, to trust me, to support me, to love me. do you feel that? you know that what we feel for each other can't even be described, right? like, it's out of this world... i know you understand me, i know you feel that too. we are something, aren't we, bee? i still don't know how to express, how to say those things to you lksdjfklsdf i just feel a lot, like i always say, i feel like i could explode from loving you this much... i'm nothing compared to all the love i feel for you, i'm really about to explode lskdjfskldf cause everything here is so big, so intense! this time, i just want to thank you, thank you for being here, i just want you to know, once more (and over and over and over and over again) how happy i am to know that you're alive, that you are here. i know things are difficult, more than you can explain to me or even to yourself... i know that you think that the best thing you could do is to disappear forever... i know that you feel like no one is by your side, that everyone is against you... i know that you feel that everything is wrong because you are living... but, let me tell you, bee: everything is better because YOU ARE here... and i really mean it... for me, especially. i'm not in my deepest darkness because i met a pink light that took everything away too... those years that we met, if i haven't met you, idk what would have happened to me... for real. like, you were necessary here, your presence, your words, your feelings, you. cause you changed me so much, bee... i became more comprehensive because of you... i grew up a lot because of you, because you made me say things, to talk more, talk more about what i was feeling, you made me realize even more my mistakes, cause even if i had those before, i may not realized all of them, but with you was different... you opened my eyes for a lot of things, to people around me, even more. you made me more gentle, more soft, more comfortable, more REAL, you know? that type of people that changes you in a short time... and you did that, in just three years. you've changed me, bee. and i am so thankful for that. thankful for what i am now because of you. like i always say: you brought more pink into my life and you painted me with soft hands, words and feelings. i'm overflowing with good feelings, good things, good thoughts, because of you. because of you, i always want to be more, to be a better person so i could help you, you make me feel strong. but, don't think that it's because i think you need to be protected... you are a fcking grown woman and i know you can take care of yourself (and i am so proud of you), but... i still have this protective feeling with you, that i have to hold you cause, the world doesn't deserve you, bee lskdjfsd so, don't think you're a mistake in the world. the world is a mistake cause it can't handle you. a masterpiece made by my Lord. my present. my angel. you are pure, bee. you are so pure. you're like that little light in the dark that means hope. don't ever think that you aren't. you are too important for this world, to me. bee, you mean life. and i'm thankful that you're that to me. like a better air that i'm breathing. thank you. for existing. for being my endless love and friend. happy 3rd 2bru anniversary.