• spent winter break being amazed at the fact that i had a boyfriend (Jan)
• celebrated my first Valentine's Day with a boyfriend (Feb)
• celebrated my 20th birthday on a beach trip (Mar)
• spent two months crying after my first sexual encounter with my first boyfriend (Mar-April)
• got saved at a Good Friday service (April 22)
• had the best Easter of my life (April 24)
• broke up with my boyfriend of 4.5 months (May)
• made friends i'll never forget (summer; Lena, Kat)
• was part of an amazing shekinah group (summer)
• was part of an amazing bible study group (summer fg)

• weariness
• a homeless woman
• the ocean
• the internet
• mattresses
• awkward people
• Meaningless Sex
• bad, overused jokes and fake laughter

• others' reactions
• how i compare to those in close proximity (ie best friend)
• approval from those "above"
• my logic
• my control over emotions and self

• fresh laundry
• freshly printed paper
• my baby cousin's belly
• my mom's shoulder
• downy blankets

• favorite colors
• faith
• composing music
• choosing which direction to go in when both paths are equal distances are take you to the place
• the process of like and love, how to discern where you are at
• how you know when you're in love
• knowing for certain what you want to do for the rest of your life
• how to criticize someone behind their back without gossiping
• the true difference between shit/crap/shoot, damn/dang, fuck/freak/frik, god/gosh
• why girls started shaving their legs in the first place

• build a clinic and free public school in cambodia
• pay for college
• take my parents on a cruise
• buy all the books i want, enough to start my personal library
• buy concert tickets to regina spektor, black eyed peas and anything else
• buy all the seasons of Lost on dvd
• buy my parents a nice house
• pay off my sister's college loans
• travel to europe and the pacific rim
• buy a grand piano
• buy my friends and family really awesome gifts whenever i feel like it
• buy a motorcyle
• take flying lessons and buy a small plane
• buy my favorite restaurant
• buy a house on the beach
• pay for hygiene products for tiffany chu

• humble, sincere
• patient. doesn't get angry easily, esp at stupid things
• able to make me laugh my face off, and i should be able to make him laugh just as much
• secretly amazingly talented at one thing
• disciplined, well-grounded, consistent
• open-minded, spontaneous at the right times
• quirky and silly and weird
• preferably a good cook

• i don't know how to be honest
• annoying voice
• awkward
• can't be myself
• overly analytical

• CDs of my favorite music
• cups
• science magazines
• dresses
• nail polish
• fiction

• try my actual best 4.0
• read the bible every day
• read spiritual books
• eat healthy, woodpec/run daily
• maintain cleanliness
• manage time
• read the news
• join clubs, ECs, volunteer
• be frugal
• call family every week
• always be reading a book
• practice piano
• be positive, tone down sarcasm, be nice
• make non-asian, non-JCA friends
• learn khmer and korean
• drink too much water

• have solid faith
• figure out my major and career path
• be not annoying
• make close friends
• read more

• put on a dress and take a walk in lullwater
• play tennis
• swim at the woodpec
• REWATCH EVERY LOST EPISODE!
• lie down on the quad and read a book for pleasure
• enjoy me some good yofo
• learn khmer
• long nap

• widows
• victims of war
• clouds, the sky, the sun
• a wall
• a woman calling out to God
• forests that don’t exist
• dispossessed fathers
• Jesus
• languages - Khmer
• a country with corrupt government
• hospital lights
• closed doors
• damn passive-aggressive corners of a room that hoard their emotions
• the deep throat of a cave
• an unloved disease
• milk bottles who have no self-respect
• your breakfast, lunch or dinner
• horses at night
• colors that don't believe in God
• carrots in the back of the fridge

• moulin rouge love
• feelings/emotions
• atheism
• excuses
• feminism
• country music
• a lot of self-proclaimed christians
• long distance relationships
• the goodness of pot

• perhaps [the harlot, the liar, the murderer] stand at the bottom of a mine, and you on the crest of an Alp; but you are as little able to touch the stars as they.

-bishop handley moule

• Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?

-matthew 7:3

• whoever tries to keep his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life will preserve it

-luke 17:33

• I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it, I see everything else.

- C.S. Lewis

• extreme poverty
• voldemort
• indie hipsters

• drums
• dancing - hip hop, salsa, tango, everything
• french
• korean
• flying a plane
• piano improvisation
• ride a motorcycle
• speed reading
• yoga
• how to play basketball, volleyball, soccer
• to watch sports and know what's going on
• cook awesome food

• samson - regina spektor
• somewhere over the rainbow - israel kamakawiwole
• imma be - the black eyed peas
• singing the summer away - the sad little stars
• chasing cars - snow patrol
• replay - iyaz
• you belong with me - taylor swift
• comptine dun autre ete - yann tiersen
• breathe me - sia
• all moulin rouge songs
• you'll be in my heart - phil collins
• kids - MGMT
• me and mrs. jones - michael buble
• aint no mountain high enough - marvin gaye
• all glee songs
• hey, soul sister - train
• meet me halfway - the black eyed peas
• anything by the xx

• regina spektor
• coldplay
• the hush sound
• vampire weekend
• rihanna
• lady gaga
• john legend
• maroon 5
• grizzly bear
• the xx
• taylor swift
• bon iver

• travel the world and eat great food
• learn how to tango, salsa, hip-hop and ballroom dance
• speak korean, learn and speak a foreign language fluently
• peace corps
• write an amazing book
• get wasted with only a couple of girlfriends
• see the northern lights
• share everything and make myself completely and utterly vulnerable to someone
• quit my job in outraged exit
• compose a musical masterpiece
• skinny-dipping
• fly a plane
• live in the hustle and bustle of a major city
• get in a fist fight and win
• see regina spektor live
• spoil my parents

• black eyed peas
• glee cast
• bon iver
• lykke li
• lady gaga
• ben e. king

• johnny depp
• joseph gordon-levitt
• lee pace
• james mcavoy
• ryan gosling
• kate winslet
• rachel mcadams
• natalie portman
• helena bonham carter
• angelina jolie

• moulin rouge
• edward scissorhands
• science of sleep
• sixteen candles
• sweeney todd
• lord of the rings trilogy
• amelie

• the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shore

• call mom. ask her how she became a christian. ask her to pray for him and his family.
• journal. changes in spirituality. relationships.
• look to christ, not in myself.
• blue like jazz, ch 1 + 2
• start writing life-story/testimony for fg

• you've got mail
• lord of the rings
• last samurai
• the notebook
• gladiator
• moulin rouge

• taekwondo
• samulnori
• tennis
• creative writing
• sax, drums..
• world relief
• hindi

• not enough hours
• awkward boss
• awkward co-workers
• too far of a walk
• manual labor
• life-sucking air of the building

• getting any letter grade besides an A
• calling my sister/brother by their names
• not doing homework
• not practicing piano
• not finishing my dinner
• lying to my parents
• asking to do something fun on a schoolnight
• watching TV for more than 30 min
• listening to music while doing hw
• *
• damn my mom ran a tight ship

• snapping a blanket
• crinkling newspaper
• classical piano
• african drum
• regina spektor
• the AHHHHHH after a refreshing sip of water
• fast typing on a keyboard
• slightly out-of-tune humming
• simple, single guitar strum
• stripping off post-it from a stack of post-its
• fat water droplets thudding on the shower floor
• rolls of thunder
• flipping all the pages of a book
• ripping cloth
• bending bendy straws

• going upstairs by myself
• ghosts (including the Holy Spirit)
• monsters in my closet, under the bed, in the toilet
• drive-by shootings

• balcony
• library
• secret room
• garden with walkway and pond with goldfish
• awesome windows

• anti-gravity, adventures, alliteration
• barnes and nobles, bananas, biology, beaches, boats, beauty and the beast soundtrack, baskin robbins, bowling, good books, blood and gore movies, barefeet, birthday cards, blank paper, bld
• cheese and crackers, cyanide and happiness, christmas, coldstone, canoeing, carnivals, calamari, creative writing, cajun food, chocolate covered raisins, cambodia, cloud watching, christmas, college-ruled paper
• dove dark chocolate,
• frozen yogurt, fingerpainting, fried chicken, frank sinatra's voice, ferris wheels, firecrackers, free samples of ice cream, fresh paper, febreze, feet, five guys burgers
• green bananas, good music
• hey arnold!, hot wings, harry potter, hairy hobbit feet, hot fudge sundaes, huzuki...

• i am afraid of squirrels
• i am self-driven
• i like biology
• i enjoy learning languages
• i did not have as strong faith in high school as i thought i did
• i am not as attached to home, family and friends as i thought i was
• i am not a romantic
• i love toasted sandwiches
• i can take 9 shots in 30 minutes and not black out, or get a hangover the next morning
• i am a bad influence
• i pretend to hate when people tell me how similar i am to my siblings, but i actually like it
• i love soymilk
• my fast metabolism will not last forever