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• . . . a random recollection of my childhood
  • meet the robinsons — when i was a kid, i bought a secondhand dvd of this film from the nearest supply store in our neighborhood for fifteen pesos. i played it countless times on our player and kept it separate from my papa's stash of horror films because it was very dear to me. i felt like if i put it next to his conjuring dvd, i would somehow be maltreating it. and then one day, i noticed scratches on the back so i pulled out a wet wipe and cleaned it. it never played again after that. it was my comfort film.
  • doraemon — i always watched it on our old panasonic crt tv but it was the summer of 2015 when i began rewatching the first few episodes on 9anime. i never really stuck around long enough to reach the latest ones but i know i was watching it alongside detective conan. i stayed diligent with those series that when my old tablet got a virus and had to be repaired, i painstakingly wrote down every tab i had in my browser, including the last episode i had watched, hoping to pick up where i left off but somehow never returned to it with the same fervor. my mama still buys me anything that has doraemon's face on it though.
  • water gel beads — in filipino, we called them kisses. mama used to keep a whole wine bottle full of them for display and i truly believed they were alive and reproducing on their own. she stopped buying the animal-shaped ones because they terrified me too much.
  • rambutan — i used to be scared of these as a kid. my papa could never convince me to touch one. he told me it was a dragon's egg.
  • yesterday once more — as a child, i had a lot of dolls and stuffed toys that my mama kept in a display cabinet. one of them was this angel doll that would sing yesterday once more by the carpenters. it always played muffled, like trapped, and it used to creep me out and fascinate me in equal parts.

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