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⠀⠀ ⠀ reading list. . .

• ✶⠀⠀power, freedom and censorship of history
• ✶⠀⠀how modern dictators survive
• ✶⠀⠀the dictatorship of the proletariat
• ✶⠀⠀the conjugal dictatorship

⠀⠀ ⠀ to continue. . .

• supersimpledev — 1:52:20 / 6:31:23
• learnittraining — 0:00 / 1:38:46

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⠀⠀ ⠀ wishlist. . .

• ☐  |  digital camera
• ☐  |  camera accesories for dslr
• ☐  |  hard drive for movies and scp
• ☐  |  lavalier microphone
• ☐  |  wireless mouse need replacement
• ☐  |  wireless headphone
• ☐  |  indoor shoes for treadmill
• ▨  |  weights
• ☐  |  smart watch

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——— i'm surrounded and defined by the things i love

• . . . keepsakes & random things i collect
  • k-pop and anime photocards
  • dvds and cds of bands i like
  • bus and movie tickets, bookstore receipts
  • nct and exo albums
  • mangas and books i have read and liked
  • keychains and phone charms
  • brooch and button pins
  • usb, old sim cards, memory cards
  • figures and plushies
  • art prints and postcards
  • bns thank you cards and notes
  • stickers that will never see the light of day

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• . . . a random recollection of my childhood
  • meet the robinsons — when i was a kid, i bought a secondhand dvd of this film from the nearest supply store in our neighborhood for fifteen pesos. i played it countless times on our player and kept it separate from my father's stash of horror films because it was very dear to me. i felt like if i put it next to the conjuring dvd, i would somehow be maltreating it. and then one day, i noticed scratches on the back so i pulled out a wet wipe and cleaned it. it never played again after that. it was my comfort film. not even my papa going abroad left me as devastated.
  • doraemon — i always watched it on our old panasonic crt tv but it was the summer of 2015 when i began rewatching the first few ep...

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⠀⠀ ⠀ to-do. . .

• ☐   |  declutter mobile and laptop
• ☐   |  make a twitter media account
• ☐   |  do a self-date jar
• ☐   |  create a genshin planner

⠀⠀ ⠀ to learn. . .

• 日本語 n5-4, english grammar
• upskill in video editing
• photography and graphic design
• igari style makeup

⠀⠀ ⠀ to explore. . .

• marxism and imperalism
• the covenant of primus, idw transformers

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• achieved: 0/10

t h i s  y e a r.

• ☐   |  finish five anime (3/5)
• ☐   |  complete five tv series (2/5)
• ☐   |  watch thirty films (2/30)
• ☐   |  finish three manga (0/3)
• ☐   |  read three books (2/3)
• ☐   |  read ten journals (0/10)
• ☐   |  lose twenty kilograms of weight
• ☐   |  start journaling again
• ☐   |  save more, spend less on merch (current: 0)
• ☐   |  develop new hobbies

• achieved:

b u c k e t  l i s t.

• ☐  |  create a mini terrarium
• ☐  |  design and tend an aquarium
• ☐  |  make clay and crochet projects
• ☐  |  send out first penpal letter
• ☐  |  first (might be last) bungee jumping
• ☐  |  learn excel and coding in-depth
• ☐  |  take jp language proficiency test
• ☐  |  renovate and design my room
• ☐  |  create my first perzine
• ☐  |  learn to play musical instruments
• ☐  |  make a photo book

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• . . . writings that altered my brain chemistry
  • in the name of the father, patricia evangelista
  • the butcher in the palace, and other fab... patricia evangelista
  • living with passive suicidal ideation, anne borges
  • sanayan lang ang pagpatay, albert alejo
  • adventures in depression, hyperbole and a half

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• go-to artists. . .   paramore. mcr. deftones. laufey. slowdive. fall out boy. phoebe bridgers. frank ocean. radiohead. nirvana. evanescence. pierce the veil. nct. arctic monkeys. basement. sufjan stevens. indigo la end. car seat headrest. red hot chili peppers. michael jackson. bruno mars. lady gaga. type o negative. the marias. adele.

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——— if i were sixteen again, i would think bigger and love deeper

• . . . hobbies and passions i want to cultivate
  • build more puzzles, whether jigsaw or 3d
  • write more creatively and freely during my free time, something i haven’t had much chance to do lately
  • journaling and doodling
  • write more analyses and reflections
  • take photos of anything and everything
  • make more edits of my fixations
  • watch more documentaries, read journals and articles
  • experiment with short story writing and poetry
  • continue to collect and preserve keepsakes
  • explore new topics and concepts
  • develop a more nuanced outlook on reality